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Stress Stinks!!! (Yuck, Pooh, Barf!!!!)

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

This is just a venting moment and I really don't think anyone would want to read this. I had to get this off my chest and this was the only way I knew how to do that. So if you do read this please don't comment. I am crying now and don't really want to cry anymore today.

I have so much stress in my life right now I am not even sure what I am doing. I have a headache that has lasted now for about 3 months. My left knee has been hurting on a regular basis but now it hurts so much that the pain in right hip is not as noticeable. I don't stress eat, I tend not to eat when I am stressed. I work out like I have a drill sergeant on my back! I am also having "Personal Summers" and sometimes I want to just explode.

One morning getting ready to go to work my watch was scratching my wrist and I got so angry I literally ripped it off my arm. (Gotta get that fixed now). And then banged my hands on the steering wheel and took a couple few deep breaths, asked God to help me get thru this and backed out of the garage.

I am wound so tight that someone walked up behind me a little while ago and I almost passed out from hyperventialting. I am a basket case.

If I step back from myself I can push my issues to the side and function like a "normal" person. I just don't know what "normal' is these days. I go to others blogs and speak words of encouragement to them but it seems I can't take my own advice. The good thing is I am loosing inches and I am looking pretty good for a 53 and a half year old woman. I need my workouts since they keep me grounded. I try not to think too much about my stressful situation when I workout. I actually am happy then. It is my happy time. I want to just exercise and forget my problems an hour. I punch, kick, dance and sculpt, lift weights, and life is not so bad right then. I stop and within an hour I am back to "thinking" again.

I am tired now and will go back to work. I apologize if this blog was read and depressed anyone. But hey I did warn you!

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    I'm a couple weeks late reading this, and I haven't finished reading the other blogs yet, but I wanted to comment on this one.

    You said you're experiencing "Personal Summers", and you're agitated lately. I'm also betting the Personal Summers are preventing you from getting a good night's sleep. I know when I get them, I toss and turn most of the night, and I'm just plain cranky and depressed the next day. But when some of those episodes passed, and I slept better, it made all the difference in the world. I *STRONGLY* suggest you talk to your doctor about those losing it moments, the hot flashes, and other common symptoms related to peri- and post-menopause. And do some reading on the topic -- I found some decent articles on Spark's Health Center section. You truly do NOT have to suffer like this.

    With that said, I will also say a "HOORAY" for the work-out attitude. The chemicals released into your body when you work out allow you to decompress, much like the fight or flight response. Your stress reliever is doing hard cardio, I suspect. Mine is too, except my body can't always handle that much aggressiveness, so sometimes I have to remember to relax, and do (what often feels like a very boring session of) yoga. I know that kind of movement is what works for me to relax. But I think you're on the right path. :-D

    Oh, and say no to HRT's. :-D
    2027 days ago
    Sorry, my friend that you were having a bad day, hoping today will be a good one. Wishing you well. emoticon
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    2041 days ago
    OK, I'm back, and like you those drill sergeant work outs help my mood. I've gained 10+ lbs in the last two weeks, so it's time. How we going to do this? Post daily our workout minutes? email each other? Let me know, cause it's 1:30 and I'm still sitting here in my robe, haven't brushed my teeth, or washed my face. really need to get back on track here to fix my mood too. :)
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    2042 days ago
    I know you said not to comment, but I can't help it. I am so sorry that you are having such a rough time. I am prone to headaches, but I have never heard of one lasting for that long. That in itself would put me way over the top. I sincerely hope that you are feeling better soon, but I also want to congratulate you for channeling some of that stress into doing something really good for yourself. A lot of people wouldn't be able to do that (that includes me!).
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    2043 days ago
    2043 days ago
    Thank you for posting this. I am having a bad day, too.
    2043 days ago
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