A change in plans
Monday, October 15, 2012
Funny how life never seems to go the way we want it to and even sillier that we expect it to!
On September 15, 2012 I fell while stepping over the baby gate from my kitchen to my hallway. I had something in each hand and couldn't brace myself when my right foot got caught on the gate and I went straight down on bent knees on hard linoleum. It hurt.
What I didn't know (that I found out a number of weeks later) is that I had fully torn my PCL and had also torn my medial meniscus. The irony of this injury while my husband is in Physical Therapy Tech school isn't lost on me. I have a wonderful PT that I am working with here in the community and will be meeting with an Orthopedic Surgeon later this month.
This has truly sidelined me from my goals. I haven't weighed myself because I know I have honestly gained weight. I lost much of my motivation to even be here on SP in the past few months and this injury kind of did me in.
This past weekend I spent with about 79 other ladies at Christ Haven Lodge in Florissant, CO! It was beautiful and a wonderful weekend of worshiping God and learning how to find the joy in every situation. It's easy to find the joy in the good situations but not as easy in the bad times. I've been losing myself to the bad situations (and there have been too many of them in the past couple of months) but I have a new goal to find joy in EVERY situation.
So I've started a joy journal. I'm not writing the joy stuff on SP, that's not my goal. But this weekend, a photo was taken of a group of us at the retreat and the sweater I am wearing in the picture is really huge on me. To see that reminder of how far I have come was very encouraging and it's given me a new goal.
My new goal for SP is to be VERY diligent of what I am eating and tracking EVERYTHING!! I've lost my focus on my food. Since going GF I just assumed "oh, I can eat this. It's GF!" but I haven't been eating as many fruits and veggies, I've been emotionally eating again and it's time to reign it in. I may not be able to exercise but I can control what goes in my mouth. I'm not burning as much energy so I need to really focus on not over fueling my body.
So there you go. I know my absence has caused many to stop following me and that's okay. I'll make new friends as I go here lol. I just feel like I'm starting over and am so very grateful to those who have stuck by me!