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One small step at a time...

Monday, October 08, 2012

I am taking back control of every aspect in my life. I have found that when I am unhappy with myself, I am unhappy with everything. I know this is not a "quick fix" or a "yoyo" diet again like all the attempts I have made before. It feels different this time. Before my end goal was to lose XX lbs or "be skinny" or fit into a size 6....While all of these goals are great, I have discovered that those are just bonuses to the big payoff! The big payoff for me is REGAINING CONTROL OF MY LIFE, MY HEALTH, MY BODY, MY MIND AND MY INDIVIDUALITY, finding out who I am again! I have been a wife since I was 20 and mother since I was 22 yrs old. For my entire adult life, so far I have put myself on the back burner to take care of my husband, our kids, work, maintain the house, and everything else that goes with being a working wife and mom. I love my husband and our kids so much...but something is missing.....ME. I have lost myself in all the hustle and bustle of life. There are so many things in my life that I want to many. I want to run a 5k for starters, maybe even a marathon one day. I want to hike more, take a cooking class, go on a family vacation...etc.etc. I don't want to feel tired, I don't want to feel slow, I don't want to be moody. I want to be HAPPY, HEALTHY and FEEL ALIVE! I know the only way to achieve these goals is to dedicate some time to care about myself, again. This isn't a diet, or a quick solution. This going to be a process, and one small step at a time I will regain who I am. This is a life change. I have heard people discuss long term lifestyle changes..and before I thought that your on a diet forever?! BUT I have now discovered what Lifestyle change means! It's not just about counting your food intake or how many minutes you log at the gym, while yes these two things are a very important part of it...they are not ALL of it! When people talk about lifestyle changes it means to change other things too. Like reducing stress, getting more sleep, trying new things, reading, exploring, discovering, finding the things that make YOU happy! Not only do we need to strive for a healthy body but we also need healthy minds and a healthy soul. It's only taken me almost 30 years and countless diets to figure this out. But now that I have...I have a new outlook on everything! It feels fantastic, I feel FREE!
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    Another comment from one who is dealing with Grand kids, not kids. (I have run several events with my oldest grandson, and three generations with my son and two grandsons). I have slowly learned to put things in perspective. Food, fitness ,etc are important, but more important are family, friends and being.

    I have learned to make small changes and to get plenty of me time. Have a piece of grandkid birthday cake and really enjoy it, skip a run because bug had a bad dream, go out for a walk, a run, read a book, etc, just because I want to.

    It seems like only yesterday my son was born and I was counting fingers and toes (really that is the first thing I did. LOL). I have since done many things, and the years have rolled by and my oldest grandson is just a little younger than I was when I counted his dads fingers and toes.

    So take the little steps and look after yourself.


    2043 days ago
    My lovely bride and I will be married 43 years next month. Yeah, I could be your dad or even granddad. I worked very hard all my life (still working.. don't need to, but I am.). I have neglected "me" over the years earning a living.

    I don't know if all your kids are in school, but once that happens, that is for sure "you" time. That is what my daughters found out. My older daughter in particular, boy 7, 10, 14 called it "emancipation" when she dropped off her last kindergartner the first time. So offload the kids in some manner and carve out regular "you" time. You family will benefit from your endorphin laden outlook! Win-win! emoticon
    2043 days ago
  • FOXY13445
    I havent been feel all that sparkley lately either but I REALLY like how you wrote this blog! emoticon
    2048 days ago
    Thanks for adding me as a friend. I've added you back. I love this blog! I slipped for a week but am also trying to focus on me. Good luck!
    2048 days ago
    Oh boy do I hear you! Have an awesome time searching for YOU! You have a beautiful family to be HAPPY and HEALTHY for!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2049 days ago
  • YEAYEA583
    Nice to meet you too!!! It does feel great to know that we are not alone! I'm just glad I realized what needs to happen finally and am doing somethin about it! emoticon
    2050 days ago
    Oh my gosh! I read your blog before I saw your comment on mine. Yes the same journey. It really amazes me to find others turning the same page, as me, when some days it feels like I'm the only one feeling this way.

    Very nice to meet you!
    2050 days ago
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