It's been a rough week

Monday, October 08, 2012

I don't know if I have said this before but my husband and I are moving to Portland Oregon. He's all excited about the trip and I am not. Yes, it's going to be a new start but there are things that I'm not looking forward to.

Facing new people. I have to admit for the past five years I have been able to hide out in the apartment and not really face society. I haven't had to deal with people judging me because of my size. I haven't had to face the rude comments. On the down side of things, I have a feeling that I have become depressed because I haven't had any other human contact other than my husband. So food has been my comfort always.

Trying to find a job. One of the things that I really really want to do is start working as soon as I can in Portland. I'm going to have to face rejection though. I'm going to have to face the limits that my body can do. I may have to face the possibility that I can't work and will have to focus on my health completely.

I'm just not looking forward to stepping out of my comfort zone. I know I have to do it but right now I'm just full of dread with scenarios playing in my head.
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    I find facing rejection insanely tough. I commend your open eyes as you assess what lies ahead and I suspect your personal strength is going to see you through. You go with good wishes behind you.
    2079 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    every week have new chances for excitement and do what you want. emoticon
    2079 days ago
    I move back and forth between Los Angeles, CA and Portland, Oregon a lot. My boyfriend lives in Portland, and I go to visit him. I actually LOVE the place. LOVE IT! There are so many places to walk to and explore. Also, people tend to be a LOT more non-judgmental in PDX. They are really a great group of people that live in that city. Always remember we need to KEEP PORTLAND Weird. :) and PUT a BIrd on it. :) emoticon You will understand these things the longer you live there.

    I will probably be going back for a visit sometime real soon, so if you would like to add me as a friend, that would be great and we could be work out buddies or something.
    2079 days ago
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