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Starting Over

Sunday, October 07, 2012

Look, things need to change. And they need to change right now. Thankfully, with all the crap I've been through this year, I haven't yet managed to gain a crapton of weight. That's a plus. In fact, I weighed in this morning at 309.6...which is about what I started this year out as, so we've had a year of yo-yo, but at least I'm keeping things in check for the most part. The only thing is, I'm tired and I want to get off this ride.

So I'm starting over.
Back to the beginning.
Step 1 only, before on to step two.

I already know this week is going to be crazy. I need to prep for probably the biggest interview of my life so the stress is going to be through the roof. My foot still hurts a lot too no matter how long I wear this insert for, so I don't even know how much the custom inserts are going to work or when they'll come. I can't count on anything except this - I will look, listen, and pay at least a little attention so that when the dust settles I'm ready to start again.

I'm going into this with the same mentality as I had in 2010. I don't know what's going to happen. I don't know if it's going to work. I just know I'm going to try. And I can't jump right into 5 day a week 1-hour workouts at the gym killing myself and eating 1200 calories hoping to make it through the day without killing someone. Right now, I can't think about restrictions. I need to only think about one thing this week and, I hate to say it, my health and well-being in the long run is not it.

Starting over.
Step One - Log everything.
That's all I'm requiring myself to do right now. Log everything I eat. I don't care how many calories it is or what kind of food. I can't think about that right now. Just log it so I have a new foundation to start from and get back in the habit of being accountable and logging everything.

Starting Weight: 309.6
Goal for the week: LOG EVERYTHING
No current weight goals.
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    Perfect goals! That is my go-to start out goal. Log no matter what. I realize after a week or so of logging that I start eating better cause I'm logging. I hope it works that way for you too :) You can do this!
    2020 days ago
  • SUGIRL06
    Girl, you are in my head again! I feel like I am in this same place today: starting from the beginning. I posted some weight loss charts today and while some people were very supportive with the "look how far you've come!", it didn't make me happy. What I see is where I'm at NOW. Screw the past success because I can't ride that wave forever. The only thing it is good for right now is to show me that I know how to freaking do this and successfully. BUT I cannot sit back and say "oh I've come so far therefore I can be content where I am". Basically, I'm saying that I am starting over just like day 1 on Spark People. For me: drink 8 glasses a day, track that food, work out when I can. No going crazy right now. Back to the basics!

    And yeah its nice to think about the overall health but seriously what I would do to get into my goal jeans!
    2021 days ago
    Sounds like just the ticket! You can do it!!!
    2021 days ago
    Just read this blog and your home page. I am so proud of you for not just throwing in the towel. Your persistance is something to be proud of!

    Take care of you, your health is so important!

    Good luck!

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    2022 days ago
    You are amazing. I wish you could see it as clearly as I do. So until you can, I'll keep stopping by and reminding you.

    2023 days ago
    Sometimes we just need a clean slate and a new starting point! You can do this!!!
    2024 days ago
    Good, good, good!

    I think this is the right strategy.
    2024 days ago
  • ERIN1128
    You're awesome. You can do this!
    2024 days ago
    Go for it. That was my goal last week and I fell a little short. But just a little. So that is something. One step at a time. But your interview. Get that one done! Crush it. What day? I will be thinking of you!
    2025 days ago
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