Coasting, coasting, slight veer off track, and I'm back in it

Saturday, October 06, 2012

I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted a blog, holy moly.

A lot has changed since then, I suppose. I've started working at the restaurant where I worked in high school, and as of two weeks ago, I also work the front desk at my gym. It SOUNDS great (and it is, actually) but it sucks my time away like you wouldn't believe. Up til now, I was doing my New Rule of LIfting for Women routine 3x/week and doing Zumba/Kickboxing/Spinning 6x/week. I lovedddd that - mostly because I could basically eat whatever I wanted haha.

But yeah, starting at the gym put me at 60 hours worked last week...which meant I worked out 2, maybe 3 times. I felt miserable. I was tired and hungry and I'd go all day without eating and then binge at night and it was just no bueno all around.

BUT, I've had a couple really good days in a row. I'm back on track with my lifting routine, I'm planning some meals in advance so I don't get stuck eating convenience foods/binging at night, and I'm trying to drink more water - I've been living on coffee.

I'm sure in the week and a half, two weeks that I was off track my body didn't change DRAMATICALLY, but getting back into a good place has reminded me that if I were to really buckle down and FOCUS, I could look freaking incredible. I've been stuck on a mindset of "good enough!," and that's fine for a while, but I'd like to really get myself into gear and actually see real, tangible results.

I haven't weighed myself in ages - maybe since August? - but I know I'm stil on the right track because these days, I'm wearing a size 0 or 2 pants/skirts/dresses and XS or S tops. And that's awesome, but when I look at myself I don't see "XS" as being like...correct. Maybe it's just because I've got a medium frame? I just see other women and they're so tiny and I know I'm not fat by any means, but I don't think I'm THAT small.

So yeah, I'm working on getting THAT small because I know I can. It's gonna be awesome. I just need to get my head back in it.
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    You have a plan! I know you will succeed!

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    1028 days ago
    I feel like I am in the same boat as you eating wise. It is so easy to forget to eat, than come home and binge. I find for myself that I get home and tell myself "I deserve it" for working hard all day and also that tomorrow I will be "good".

    Your workout amount is actually not bad considering your schedule. Have you ever considered working out after work? I am a morning exerciser, but I like the idea of working out at night to breakup the day and get myself in a different frame of mind. I will let you know how it works for me:)

    We all go through times in our life when working out is not the priority and life can get in the way (new job, new internship, etc). What is important is to figure out what you can control and find a way to nurture yourself that is life affirming rather than self destructive (meditating) or adding in an incompatible behaviour (exercise when you usually eat). Honestly though, I think 2-3 days a week when you busy is not bad!

    2021 days ago
    Welcome back !!

    Most women are hard on their bodies because we have a distorted image of ourselves. We think too negatively of our bodies. We think we're bigger than we really are.

    You'd be surprized how small you really are. Do you have a tape measure ? Measure your waist. Let's say it's 26 inches. Now, make a circle with that tape measure at the 26 inch mark. Hold up that circle. That's how small your waist is !!

    Maybe there are women who are smaller than you. I know that Eva Longoria has bragged about being a size 00 or 000. Does that size even exist ? Anyway, the point is that you can't compare yourself to other women. Because there are women who wonder if they will ever be as small as you. we are all wonderful and unique.

    2026 days ago
    You can do it! You have such great focus and have made so much progress! I'm glad to see you back blogging! I've missed you! :)
    2026 days ago
    60 hours a week?? Holy smokes. Just stay focused! :)
    2026 days ago
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