Bad Employee

Friday, October 05, 2012

I feel like such a horrible employee! I've missed three days of work this week. The office manager insisted that I stay home today to recover from the illness I reported to have had on Tuesday and Thursday, and it was pretty much like, "See you Monday," rather than "Just don't come in if you're still not feeling well." I'm not sure if they are the type of people who are adamant about keeping sickness out of the office to spread, or they are disappointed in me as a flaky temp and are using sickness as an excuse to keep me out of the office. Hopefully I'm just being paranoid needlessly. I always have insane bouts of guilt when I take any time off, whether I want to be a flake or I'm actually sick/depressed and need the time off. Of course there's the severely reduced paycheck to worry about, and mid-month is my worst financial time.

Guess there is nothing to do but get through it, right? Soon I will have a new job where I will actually get paid time off and sick leave so I won't have to feel like I have to choose between my health and my paycheck.

Not much news on the weight loss front. I lost 0.4 pounds according to yesterday morning's weigh-in, which is on the lower end of my loss spurts. I figure my trends will continue and I will stay at 203.6 for three to four days before I see another slip downwards. I'm within four pounds of Onederland, though, and I expect to reach that late next week or the week after next. I'm excited!

Today is my mother's birthday, so there is going to be a lunch at my family's office for her, which will most likely mean foods of the fried and high-calorie variety. So far I've been rather successful at negotiating family functions and sticking to my diet, despite several relatives (spearheaded by my grandmother) insisting that I eat because I'm just so skinny! Eat! Haha I want to tell them to chill, I still weigh more than them and skimping on a meal isn't going to kill me. I've had success with bringing in my own healthier food or just getting a serving of chips and dips I can track and slowly munching so it looks like I'm eating the entire time. Of course who knows how my tactics will hold up with the upcoming holidays themed on feasting. We'll see how that goes.

I spent most of yesterday with my best friend, as it was her day off, and we were bad, bad girls and went on a bit of a shopping spree. I only spent about $35 overall, but I feel bad because I know I'm going to be in quite the financial pinch in a matter of weeks. But then again what else am I supposed to do if I have access to 50% off books and journals that are already marked to 50% off? Seriously, if you can withstand that level of literary awesomeness, you've got a super power. Now the hard part is going to be finding space for all these new awesome books.

Well, the morning is definitely seeping away, so I might as well hop in the shower and get my breakfast (I found pumpkin chai tea yesterday! So delicious!) in me. Even if I'm not going into work I feel like such a lazy bones if I don't get up and get ready and go somewhere, even if it's just the post office.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
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    Maybe talk with your boss how you feel and work something out
    2020 days ago
    I know it's easier said than done, but you really shouldn't feel guilty about taking the time off you need for your health. I hope that it becomes easier for you when you start your new job, and get paid sick days. I love having paid sick days, and I try not to take advantage of them, but when you need a day off, for whatever reason, you need a day off. Making yourself go to work in that sort of situation is really pointless, because how much will you really get done if you don't want to be there?

    And oh, I don't know how anybody could resist the temptation of 50% off books and journals. I know I definitely can't! That's why I don't let myself go into bookstores too often, although considering I do most of my book shopping online, and I spend way too much that way, I don't know how much good that's doing me. Oh, the dangers of PayPal and credit cards when you're shopping online, lol!
    2025 days ago
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