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Friday, October 05, 2012 don't!

These past 2 months have been real challenging for me. Brendan and I have had some crappy things happen that have not helped my progress. When I'm stressed, I do one of two things: don't eat or eat a ton. I know MANY others do this too. I've been eating well MOST of the time, but I've had a lot of "comfort food binges," pigging out on things like chips, crackers, cheese, bread, among other foods I otherwise haven't touched for MONTHS! And the only reason I'm doing this is because in my head, I still have not convinced myself that FOOD CANNOT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!!!!

I know what DOES make me feel better:
-playing sports
-going to the park
-playing with my pets
-getting my work done instead of procrastinating
-drinking a glass of ice cold water

When I go to food for comfort, I need to think of this list instead of stuffing my face with food that just makes me feel guilty and miserable. I'm sick of making myself feel that way, especially when I know it's possible not to.

Today, I'm dedicating myself to myself, committing to thinking about what is ultimately best for me instead of only what feels good for the moment. And in the future, I will thank myself for finally seeing who is most important: me.
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  • OOLALA53
    It really takes about five years before the chance at relapse drops to only 25%- and that's of the people who make it to goal. (Personally, I feel my lifestyle is my goal now, anyway, not a weight.) So you're normal. From those who finally maintain, they said the difference was that they stopped letting failures derail them for weeks or months (or years) at a time. You sound like you are ready to be one of them. (But also remember that your overeating is an easily stimulated pattern and it served a purpose for a long time. You've got the intellectual side down with a few (if it's been less than a year, it really is only a few compared to the previous time) experiences to back it up. Just keep adding those alternate experiences to the bank even when it's only a bare thread of knowledge that you hold onto while you choose them instead of eating. I really believe it's when I started saying No to food when it was really hard that it built the habit more strongly. I had always depended on the honeymoon phase before. I never pushed through when it got hard and further on to when it's easy MORE of the time. The struggle now is more like dealing with a Chihuahua rather than a Great Dane and a lot less frequent. You're on the right path.
    2417 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/5/2012 12:09:23 PM
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