When I am awake
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
I am not sure if it is because I am bright eyed or bushy tailed at 11 am or if it is an actual epiphany. I just feel like I am high in the sky and have a good lay of the land in terms of my mental health status. My mom called and we cleared some things up in terms of my trying to distance myself and why. She understood, agreed and admitted I was a burden. That's what I heard. I was the actual person who said I was an emotional burden but did she have to agree so heartily!?! It hurt but because it was true it was a shadow of pain.
But this morning I feel the need to say I am learning social skills, learning stress coping skills. I fail and fall and get back up again for big and little things. That's life. I have made friends, I am reaching out tiny bit by tiny bit. I am a smart ass, funny, stubborn, controlling, hopeful, afraid, aware. I am smart, a procrastinator and becoming every day. Yeah, I think I am just REALLY wide awake today.
Have a good day.
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