Sunday, September 30, 2012
So how is everyone doing? I'm doing so much better! Allow me to explain what's been going on...
So last time I posted I posted about my 2 main issues: headaches and not working. Well I went to a neurologist and had an MRI and the whole thing done and nothing was found. The neurologist couldn't figure it out and just wanted to drug me up. Ugh! So then I went to my chiropractor and we were looking at my medications and we realized several of them caused headaches AND that I was taking an upper and a downer. So I quit almost ALL my medications cold turkey. I'm so glad I wasn't working because the first 2 weeks were bad, I couldn't even drive. Then it took a month for me to no longer feel the effects of the medication. I now only take 2 medications, and I'm very proud of myself because that was HARD. But I got it done and now I rarely get headaches! (With the exception of recently, I'm getting over a sinus infection. I never had one before- most not fun!!)
So somewhere in all of this I did go through a depression, which I suppose is normal; I had a partial hysterectomy and got myself off of the anti-depressants. My gynocologist was afraid I wanted kids now, and I had to laugh at that because that was sooooo not it at ALL! I just didn't feel like myself. (It was so long ago that I can't remember what he did. I do think he checked to see if it was hormonal and he says it wasn't. I don't agree. LOL) Anyway, it got bad. I never wanted to leave the house and basically became a hermit which is NOT me. And in between all this I've been dealing with crap with my mom. To make a long story short, I had gotten fed up with her being dependent on me like a child like she had her entire life and decided to put an end to it, I couldn't stand it anymore. So I put my foot down, sent her a letter (months after the confrontation, I wanted to do it in a mature way- I needed space first) and to this day, no reply. Which is fine with me; I'm happier and I don't need her negativity. What had ultimately saved me and got me out again was starting Mary Kay. Because of Mary Kay, I got out of my depression, got a job, and am now back to my outgoing self. Sadly, during the depression phase and the crap with my mom I did gain some weight. However, I saw my gastric bypass surgeon just recently and he really woke me up. I mean, I knew I had to do SOMETHING because there was NO WAY I was going back to where I was, but I felt so lost. So I saw him and will now be seeing him monthly. So now I'm back to tracking my food and once I feel 100% better I'll be exercising again. So I'm on my way! My first goal is to get back to under 200 pounds, then to 187, then to 173, and then after that to get to 150 and then I'll reassess from there.
So now life is great! Mostly no headaches, cleaned out the negative people in my life, and am out working and am building my own business with Mary Kay. My goal is to do Mary Kay full time because I absolutely LOVE it! I can't remember being so passionate about something before, and it feels great! I've been through a lot over the last few years and have come out so much better on the other side. The weight gain, yes it bothers me, but I know I will lose it so I'm not obsessive about it. I know I'll get there! Everyone has setbacks and the best part is I have a great support system now and the knowledge to know what's happening, not like before. My journey is not over yet!
Have a wonderful, healthy day everyone!!