2nd month since started forcusing on me
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Well, I found time to sit down and write finally.
So funny, I was so happy that I was able to do some gardening for Salemharvest.com and thought I was strong enough. Well. Almost.
Couple days after my last blog my back slipped, had to have it fixed twice - then feeling very sorry for myself I went on eating everything in sight. Who cared! I skipped last weeks weight watchers and sooo wanted to just throw in the towel. Stresses at work
and not being able to meet my goals at curves to work out 3 times a week or more. Just got to me.
Let met say, I was my own worst enemy.
This week, I made it to curves on Monday and walked tuesday, then asthma issues and I was sure that I gained 20+ lbs!
So today, I headed out to curves and weight watchers - reluctantly. dragging my heals. Planning mentaly a huge eating out with all the things that I know are not good for me as I know myy weight went up, up, UP.
I lost .6 lbs, which in my mind is a mere fluctuation but I did NOT gain the imagined 20 plus lbs. It was like I walked out on lighter feet. I went to curves and worked out, still floating I had pad thai but took 2/3 home to share . I came home and finished working in the garden, cleaning it up. Tomatos get a couple more days if the weather holds.
I had so set myself up to fail mentaly that I forgot all the things I do RIGHT.!
I take my lunch, its measured and laid out with snacks and good food.
I walked on several breaks this week and last week.
I got good sleep most of the time.
I did not go out and eat the 2 dozen apple fritters I wanted to. Not even 1. I dreamed about opening drawers full of fritters and remember thinking in my dream,"they are likely stale." and closing the drawer and walking away.
So, month 2 isnt so bad.