I've lost all since of reality.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

I just moved out here to Washington, and leaving my family behind was the biggest mistake ever. I did everything with them. I even still lived with my parents because it was a comfort. When my parents left at the airport I lost it. I cried in the car on the way to my house. I tried cleaning to keep my mind off of things, but that didn't work. (Let me tell you that cleaning up after 3 guys is one tough job). I tried watching some comedy movies, but that only made things worse. I cried going to sleep, and every time I woke up I cried then. This is the worst decision I have ever made, and I had to learn that on my own. Yes, I did move out here to be closer to my best friend and to experience something new, but in all reality I just want to be back with my family.

Life sucks. Driving all the way out here was a waste. I just want to go home. I can't stay here anymore. The anxiety of all of this has been the worst I've ever had. I feel bad for making my parents waste a week to drive me out here, but I'm just ready to pack my things and go back home. I think that trying to move out on my own so far away was a big mistake. All i can say is that I tried. I think sticking closer to home will help me gain more independence while still being close to family. I'm trying not to cry while typing this. I guess i am just so confused with life. I thought this was going to be the best thing ever, but it's not that it was cracked up to be.
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    Woah! Take a step back and take a deep breath.....It has been a lot of years since I moved away from home....but I remember it being very difficult.....Give yourself some time. Remember WHY you decided to move....Try and focus on what you can do to make your "new" life happier....
    2026 days ago
    How long has it been since you moved to Washington?
    2026 days ago
    Change is very had sometimes and I'm sorry to hear that you're having such a rough go. Know that you're not alone.

    2027 days ago
  • JUNEAU2010
    I live in CA with no family in the timezone, let alone nearby. I wish I did have family nearby. Story of my life. Most of my life I have lived states apart from my family and I do miss them. BUT you, as I have, will find a way to make a life where we are planted.
    2027 days ago
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