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Thursday, September 27, 2012

As I mentioned in a previous blog, I was down and out for quite a while -- both with school and with health problems. Thankfully, the health problems seem to have been resolved. As for school, I had to drop my Japanese course this semester because I was feeling too bad to attend and I was falling behind. This means I won't be able to graduate next semester as I planned.. but I am finally OK with this. Sh!t happens, and my health is more important. Due to this turn of events, my school schedule is cut in half -- I am only doing 2 classes now, which gives me a bit more wiggle room to work in my healthy cooking and workouts.

This week I've been running again (3 times!) and it feels amazing -- I've struggled lately with motivation, binge snacking, muscle aches, depression, etc... but I already feel these symptoms lessoning since getting back into the amazing sport that is running. I feel like it helps my body and my mind function a way that no other form of exercise makes me feel. Plus, it's very very motivating; I really want to get back into doing 5ks, so I'm training to do the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving. Since I lost some progress, my goal is just to finish in less than 60 min (which should be easy and give me an idea of where I stand).

Support -- real life support -- is something I don't get much of from my family (except for my wonderful boyfriend), but it's something I've decided I need. Last week, I took a huge plunge and joined a therapy/support group on campus intended for women who are trying to lose weight and live healthier lives. I've also begun individual counseling to deal with emotional eating, as well as to learn coping strategies for my family, stress, school, etc.

All in all, nothing is going as expected -- but that's ok. I am not superwoman, and I did not meet my goals (school nor weight)... but I think that taking this path is going to lead to a healthier and happier me. I WILL reach 299 lb, no matter how long it takes.

And you know, I have maintained an over 65 lb weight loss, even throughout the health issues that I've had this summer. I think I should give myself some credit for that. Good job, self! I am on the right path, so I will stop being so hard on myself and just put one foot in front of the other.

For now, my goals are simple: keep running 2-3 times per week and do a bit of strength training. Stretch often. Attend therapy. Don't overdo it.

Everything else seems to fall into place when I am consistent with my workouts--I crave healthy foods to fuel my runs, I lose my anxiety and thus urge to binge. My diet is already good--I just need to be careful with emotional eating and I will be losing weight again in no time at all. I said before that I was in this for the long haul, and I meant it!

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  • LORRAINE10141
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  • PANDAS10
    I love this blog. I so understand the things you write about.
    It totally isn't a race to the finish line; but just finishing.... I was really down and out about my rate of weight loss, lack of motivation at times, dealing with some stressful issues at work (and one of my pediatric clients dying); and it was all I could do to just keep my routine, keep trying. I figured that even though I didn't meet many of my goals, as long as I didn't just totally give up, I could be ok with adjusting them. Sometimes just the mental aspect of having to review your goals/expectations vs. reality can be really daunting (and it can be really difficult not to fall back into the negativity and self-loathing thought process... at least, that's true for me).
    I'm so proud of you for maintaining your weight loss! It really is a big deal - I mean, how many people do you know could maintain through some big life struggles? And do you think you could have had this same success a year ago?

    Keep up the great work and happy running!!!
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    Comment edited on: 9/28/2012 4:48:57 PM
  • KIPPER15
    Maintaining your weight loss with with all that has been happening in your life is a huge accomplishment. I would have gone off the deep end. You rock. emoticon emoticon
    2096 days ago
    Your are Superwoman to me !! It takes an incredible amount of courage to do what you did with your academic situation. My Hat is Off to You , My Dear Lady. You have already taught a ton of people how to deal with emotional issues and you still strive to improve and teach emoticon . Most people would throw in the towel. But , not you - kudos to you ! Have you ever indulged in the Book Woman Who Run with The Wolves ? It helped me alot through some similar situations - its not a corny self help book - very well written. Check it out - Hugs LiL Racer
    2096 days ago
    Great blog!

    Support is so crucial in the weight loss journey. My extended family aren't supportive of my healthy lifestyle. Thankfully.... I have a very understanding and supportive husband. Otherwise, my family would drive me crazy enough to emotionally eat!

    So glad you have found a support group. Along with the Spark community, you will reach your goal!
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    Comment edited on: 9/27/2012 2:29:31 PM
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  • MILLIE5522
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    2097 days ago
    I already believe you are a success story. It takes a lot of drive and commitment to maintain a 65 pound plus freakin' weight loss. You have your nutrition in order and you have the desire to run and keep yourself active to succeed. Yes,congratulate yourself on achieving this. Celebrate your successes. School,well you are succeeding there too,just delayed. You have a few unfortunate set backs, but it was not for a lack of trying or motivation. Remember that and do the other things you need to do to keep yourself on the right path, til you can finish your degree.
    I firmly believe you can and will do this. emoticon
    2097 days ago
    Yes, good job to you!
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    2097 days ago
    Life is what happens when we're busy making other plans! But it looks like you are adapting to your new situation, which is amazing. :)

    Is it weird to be proud of someone you've never met? Because I'm proud of all that you have accomplished, even in the face of health problems. Keep up the good work--you deserve all of the success that is coming your way. emoticon
    2097 days ago
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