Just a quickie blog to update....
We are fast closing in on the end of September, and my big plans for a rockin' fitness month have gone nowhere.....There are a few factors at play (unpredictable schedule, busted treadmill, big demands on my time and energy between 'single-parenting' my kids while supporting and helping DH while he is completely consumed with his current project, etc.)
But....y'know.....I'm actually okay with it. I'm within 1 lb of the middle of my maintenance range and am staying there despite fairly *ahem* liberal eating habits (nightly dips into the Milano double chocolate cookie bag with a cheddar goldfish chaser constitutes liberal in my books....as do dishes with CHEESE *gasp* and WHOLE EGGS *gasp* a meal other than vegetable soup and a hard-boiled egg for dinner cuz I'm out of calories for the day *gasp*)...combined with an almost total absence of exercise. Usually I'm a mega strict clean eater, time my meals for optimum this-and-that and am low-cal most of the time. Usually, I cook for my family, but eat my own (admittedly limited) diet. Lately, I cook for all of us. We eat together. It's healthy, yummy and I'm trying new recipes. And I am liking it.
Typically, this time of year has found me obsessing about getting into wickedly good shape (why? hmmmm....I don't really remember....). But right now, I'm just kinda *meh* about putting in a big effort. I do have a fairly big event coming up for which I would like to look good....but I'm actually feeling like I look good anyway.
I am wondering if it's all just part of 'my' brand of maintenance....I'm learning that I don't have to work too hard or deprive myself too much to stay in a place where my clothes fit and I feel and look good. Not 'good for a woman my age', but just plain good. Could I look better? Probably....but it's just not where my heart is at the moment.
For now, I'm enjoying the extra sleep, the freedom to eat according to desires and hunger while still making healthy choices. I'm enjoying having room in my head and my heart for something other than calorie counts and fitness minutes. I'm enjoying our family actually sharing meals together, all of us with the same food on our plates. I like that I'll nibble the same snack as my kids after school and just yak with them about their day, and agreeing with them that, hey, these organic cocoa rice crisp thingies are pretty good. I like that I am present with them and not caught up counting cals in my head.
I WILL be making more of an effort to exercise, simply for the stress-relief and other health benefits. I MIGHT get a bit more focus on later this fall when this busy time passes, but for now, I am surprisingly happy to be just where I am, and just how I am.