feeling super bad yesterday, i got out
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Feeling very down yesterday. I got myself out of the house and helping my daughter clean her neighbors yard and taking two loads to the dump. Not moving very well do to my MS but i did it. Having feelings of not wanting to go on, i pushed myself thought it. Dr's just want to medicate me instead off helping me with what is causing the problem. I have went down the road of different medications for depression and they do not work for me, but cause other side effects, making my problems double.
I have to leave again today as well, still having the struggles with my depression. I must push through. I don't trust myself. I am so lucky to have a daughter to help me get my mind off these feelings. I sometimes break down and cry in front of her. But it is short lived, she helps me through it all. I am very lost right now.
I changed up my exercises, to help with my weight lose, not losing. I fight my medicines they cause weight gain and i fight myself of eating right and not giving up. Also the money to buy better foods which cost more. We have 4 people in the house hold.