You know, there is Good in a GOODBYE!
Monday, September 24, 2012
I haven't posted in awhile. I was in my own mind of plans and failed plans. Meanwhile life was going on and it seemed like everytime I turned around there was a situation. Anyhoo, I took focus on myself and didn't turn around (some nights I didn't know that turning around was possible. My relationship has been going in the toilet for the last 18months and I just let it. (He's currently locked up.....that's other story all in its self).
But I was really sick of being tired. A male nurse at my job told be that he was looking at the informercial about the Montell juicer, and since he can't afford one he started making smoothies in his regular blender (he is not overweight yet he likes to eat healthy). After he told me about it I told him I would jump on board........Well I didn't! He came looking for me at work and asked me about it and I admitted that I didn't do it, but said that I would. Well the next morning I got up pulled some frozen spinach, mixed berries, and peaches out of the freezer and went to work. Boy!....It took what seemed like 5 minutes to get it mixed up (I added some nonfat greek yogurt cause I love that stuff). After I was done I had this big 32oz of muck looking at me, but I said "what the h%ll" then got me a spoon and went to work. I was pleasantly surprised. The second day I went overboard adding beet, carrot powder, flaxseed and wheat germ....Ugh! Couldn't do that one so I settled for Fiber One cereal with some fresh blueberries. I vowed to get up each day and make this smoothie. After a few days I actually started craving them. My craving for sweets went down and I found myself finding pleasure in one sweet treat instead of the 7-10 daily servings binges I was use to.
Then came the final push.....I thought I was being nice in respectful eneding my relationship that wasn't working,,,,,,,, but nooooooo! I got a letter in the mail that was the nastiest thing I ever read from him. He made an attempt to make me feel "less than" (something that I KNOW I AM NOT!). Well needless to say I wanted to write something just as nasty back.......I didn't. What I did is decided that I don't have any time to be miserable anymore. It's time to get back into me. The smoothies have already given me more energy and had me wanting to do something.....that letter made me know that I have no other choice.
My new motto is "The Best Revenge Is To Live Well.........Be The Person To Yourself That Your Parnter Wouldn't Be!" Those are my words to live by. And since I've been losing a pound a day. Even better, I finally got myself back in the gym and started swimming again. And i'm looking forward to the rest of this year. Something I hadn't felt good in in along time.
So there is such a thing as a Good Bye........It is in my case.
395.6lbs I wanted to posted my current weight so I know where I have came from going forward.