Sunday, September 23, 2012
Just wondering if anyone else feels guilty when they don't run as fast as they planned (or as fast as their friend who is running the same amount), or if other people feel guilty about not eating right? That is usually where my weight loss path meets a dead end. Once I make a food mistake, I will say well that's it I will just eat bad the rest of the day and say well the weekend is ruined I will start again on Monday. Well, since I posted the last blog which was so appropriately titled "Had a nice run and a food victory." Every since that post I have had a hard time with food and running! :-( I hope I am learning, I do feel that I am. First of all I have not decided to quit.....I can't anyway, I am part of the the Tenacious Tangerines!!!!! But anyway I just keep remembering that I have a goal of 214 coming up this next week, which I probably would have already reached if I had been exercising and eating like I had prior to this last week, but it possible I can still make the goal! And if I don't, well I will just push the goal back a little and not stop!!! Even when I mess up I am trying to not to give up totally, I will eat good the next meal and though I am eating the wrong food I am still cutting the portions! (That has to be a plus) Anyway, I have decided that even if it takes me a long time I am still going to attempt to got in the right direction.
And running, well I ran 5 miles last week and I was slower than I wanted to be (slower than my friend I was wanting to beat or at least tie). So I didn't exercise at all on Monday & Tuesday, so Wednesday I ran 5 miles and I beat my Sunday 5 mile time by 2 minutes and I was stocked to run it again on Friday and was sadly disappointed with and extremely slower time. But when I put it into perspective I am training for a half marathon and was to run 5 miles once a week. I was doing it two days in a row, I was really doing to much my body needs time to rest.
So I hope this means this is the time!! I am accepting my shortcomings and realizing this is a process that WILL take a long time and this is a life change not something I am going to do for as long as I can and then I'm done, this is really a life change and my body will someday (soon I hope) show it!!!