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Today sucked

Saturday, September 22, 2012

It really did. I was so stressed at work.

I'm just absolutely fatigued from the stress and burned out from being short-staffed for almost six months. Every time we get relief something else happens and we are down a person. One coworker lost his dad and mom in the same week. Shortly after he came back, another got called to jury duty. Now another coworker is on a vacation and one was transferred to another department for personal reasons. Through it all I've soldiered through but today I felt defeated and overwhelmed.

I'm dealing with my own emotional ups and downs too and throw work stress on top of that and I just felt like I couldn't deal at all. So after work I went to the gym and worked out harder than I ever have on the elliptical. I could feel my legs burning but I ignored it. I was so mad. Just so mad. That seems to be my go-to emotion these days. I don't know how to get rid of it. Just when something great happens and I think I'm getting a handle on things, I have a day like today and I just go right back to that negative place.

After the gym, I went to a friend's even though I just wanted to come home and feel sorry for myself. I'm writing this because I went over 85 calories today and I think it's good to note my triggers. I know the exact moment it happened too. There was an extra tortilla sitting on my desk from lunch that I had meant to throw away because I had no intention or need to eat two tortillas for lunch. Before I knew what I was even doing, I was eating it! emoticon. Bam. 120 calories right there.

Here's to hoping for a better tomorrow.
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    I think it's soooo amazing that you channeled your anger through exercise and you went out to see a friend. It is SO EASY to skip the gym and go home and mope after a bad day, but you didn't. I think that's really awesome. One tortilla may have been technially one tortilla too many, but I think your positive responses far outweigh your negative ones in this story. I am sorry you went to the "dark place," for a while, but it always passes. And the more of your accomplishments you celebrate, the harder it is to go there.

    2374 days ago
    Being short-handed at work - no matter how good the reasons - is really difficult for people committed to doing quality work. Take some time for yourself! Figure out some way to deal with the stress that is really effective for you. It's easy to pass it off as "every job has stress", but it can really take a toll on YOU.
    2375 days ago
    I don't think that small overage of calories is a big deal. It is not like it is a common thing you do. You are doing great,don't let this slow you down. Sorry the stress of work is getting to you. Hopefully you can have a stress free weekend.It is good you are working thru the stress with exercise but try not to dwell in the negative place. You are making changes for the better and the old things you used to do are over. Tell yourself that and believe it.
    2376 days ago
    85 calories is nothing, honey! Look at all u did for a work out,,that's awesome! Try to focus on the positive. I know its so much easier said than done but u don't want that negativity and stress to bring u down. You are such a beautiful fabulous woman who deserves to be happy and healthy--remember that. I try to tell myself that everyday..Lol. As far as using that as a go to emotion..I don't think it's ALL bad..It got u going, right? U burned off that stress! Keep up the awesome work you're doing. I hope things get easier for u at work. Have a great stressless weekend! emoticon
    2376 days ago
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