Saturday, September 22, 2012
It really did. I was so stressed at work.
I'm just absolutely fatigued from the stress and burned out from being short-staffed for almost six months. Every time we get relief something else happens and we are down a person. One coworker lost his dad and mom in the same week. Shortly after he came back, another got called to jury duty. Now another coworker is on a vacation and one was transferred to another department for personal reasons. Through it all I've soldiered through but today I felt defeated and overwhelmed.
I'm dealing with my own emotional ups and downs too and throw work stress on top of that and I just felt like I couldn't deal at all. So after work I went to the gym and worked out harder than I ever have on the elliptical. I could feel my legs burning but I ignored it. I was so mad. Just so mad. That seems to be my go-to emotion these days. I don't know how to get rid of it. Just when something great happens and I think I'm getting a handle on things, I have a day like today and I just go right back to that negative place.
After the gym, I went to a friend's even though I just wanted to come home and feel sorry for myself. I'm writing this because I went over 85 calories today and I think it's good to note my triggers. I know the exact moment it happened too. There was an extra tortilla sitting on my desk from lunch that I had meant to throw away because I had no intention or need to eat two tortillas for lunch. Before I knew what I was even doing, I was eating it!
. Bam. 120 calories right there.
Here's to hoping for a better tomorrow.