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Friday, September 21, 2012

After a wonderful first week on this site I lost 7 only to gain back 6 the second. Am I depressed about this?....Yes Yet, I know it is important to pick myself up and brush myself off and go on...not so easy since I found myself fail all over the place the second week going into the third. It is time to HALT and try to learn from all this. What did I discover these are just some of the things:
1. I don't plan ahead enough. When you don't plan they say you plan to fail.
2. I was trying to overcome many bad habits I had become comfortable with all at once. I have to realize this weight did not come on overnight and all those bad habits won't go away fast either.
3. I also have to not let the scale define me was already getting depressed and saying....What's the use and took more food.
4. Need to journal since I am going through major crisis in my life right now and need to zero into what's eating me and find an outlet for pain and anger and feeling victimized by situations.
Well as you can see I am becoming more aware. I need to be more patient and loving to myself. I need to put the time and energy its costs to get healthy and lose weight. I need to be the caretaker I am in my job, my marriage, my relationships with family and friends. I need to feel I am worth it.
In conclusion...yes I lost and then gained...but it will not all be for nothing if I learn from it.....its all up to me. Oddly enough as I write this I AM ABOUT THE ONLY THING IN THE WORLD I CAN COMPLETELY CONTROL.......I think I get it so now I have to figure out the ways. Good luck to all of you out there too on your journey.
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    Now that you've analyzed what you did wrong and what you need to do then you are already making progress. Good luck and don't let the scale determine how you feel about yourself. I've found the scale is really a frenemy! Just emoticon and emoticon !
    2040 days ago
    You've done great at analyzing what you need to do and changes you need to examine. One thing to remember is that permanent weight loss is hard. Anyone who says it is easy probably never did it. It takes a lot of changes in us besides our eating, moving, getting enough sleep, as important as those are. But you will find yourself making changes in attitudes and character, as well. I think many of us will find ourselves better, more thoughtful and stronger people as a result of our journey here. emoticon
    2041 days ago
    Yvonne. I'm sorry that things are tough for you now and hopefully they will get better. I just read that stress is so bad for weight loss. One reason being that you are so stressed out that you can't sleep. Which everyone knows by now that portion control, exercise and sleep are the best things for anyone trying to lose weight. Get yourself together emotionally, go on with your plan (that sounds good) and go for it!! So many of us have been there, done that. Good thing I'm not allergic to dirt, because I'm tired of getting up and dusting myself off. :) Good Luck, Hon--you'll be fine. Noel

    2041 days ago
  • JILL313
    You've analyzed your week really well and seem to have great insight into what you did and what you need to do. You are a very wise woman and I know this next week will be a good one for you. We're all a "Work in Progress" even those of us who have been Sparking for years. Like you said it's all up to us whether we succeed or not on this Healthy Journey. I believe in you, and know you're going to make healthy choices emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon and get some exercise in even it it's just 10 minutes a day. I want you to be a Loser (weight, that is) and feel great!! I know you and I can do this for ourselves so it's got to be one of our top priorities now. Take good care.


    2041 days ago
    Just be patient with yourself. It is better to take things slowly a step at a time and build good habits that last. Good luck in your journey to a heathier you.
    2041 days ago
    Well, actually, Yvonne, what you might have gained was some insight into this incredibly difficult, but worth-while journey! A lot of what you lost the first week might have been water weight and not a "real" weight loss at all and it looks like you've identified much of the "gain" this week. You'll do fine once you get settled into the routine of everyday management and acceptance of the daily struggle most of us go through. I have lots of faith in you and know that every step we take is success...we have to look for progress and not perfection! Good luck to you, my friend! Hugs, Jeannie
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    2041 days ago
  • TIG123GER
    Really good reflection on the experience - it isn't easy and I find that I gain and lose the same couple of pounds sometimes and it is so frustrating so I don't weigh too often because, even though I know better, I let it get to me so I look for other things to celebrate. Good luck with the next week and stay positive - it will come for you.
    2041 days ago
    Hi INSPIRATIONAL3, well done on getting started! Although I'm a relative newbie to SP, I've found the community very encouraging and supportive. There is so much information on here, and resources including challenges, teams, message boards and articles. Good luck!

    2041 days ago
    Shake it off and keep on keeping on!!
    2041 days ago
    emoticon This journey we are on is full of ups and downs and not just on the scale. The important thing is to keep on. Look at your first week and find those positives and build on them. Throw away the negatives for they are already in the past. It’s not easy but it helps to know you are not alone , so I'll share my motto “Without challenges there would be no change.
    2041 days ago
  • LPAYNE76
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  • DIETER27
    same thing happened to me. I just lost 2 lbs today after I had gained 7 lbs back being on Weight watchers. I plan on exercising today again. I had a good trainer atCurves lastnight who told me never to give up. I worked out hard with her and burned close to 300 calories in 30 minutes. Don't give up You Can Do It!
    2041 days ago
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