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Day 0 - I'll start over as many times as I need... I just don't want to give up!!!

Friday, September 21, 2012

I'm not giving up!!! My husband and I decided I'm not going to try any fancy diets or special programs, I was trying to "do it right" so bad for my last 30 pounds that I got it all muddled up!!!

A lie I've been believing is, and I'm sure I've said something close to this before however, "If I still look this bad after loosing 100 pounds, how will loosing 30 more help?"

I'm going to be putting some truth on that this coming week and like I said on my previous day 1's I'm trying to go back and remember what I did to stay on track, to stay in my calorie range, and burn the calories I need to burn, and spend my time with God!!! I'm so off balance, and I haven't lost any weight over the past 9 months!!! I just realized that tonight, I've been telling myself It's only been 6 months for 3 months now... I'm all messed up right now, and my husband sees it too, so we're doing this together!

New/ Old Plan:
emoticon Goal Rewards are time based!
30 days - Manicure and Pedicure
60 days - Mom ring/ New Workout Clothes
90 days - New Perfume/ Hair style
120 days - 3 day Camping trip
150 days - Massage/ Tattoo
180 days - New Clothes/ Photo shoot
7 day goals are - New article of clothing, 3 hours personal time, going dancing, or getting car detailed

emoticon Time with God every day, a little is better than nothing! Morning is better than anything
Bible Study
Bible Reading
Prayer - specifically in journal

emoticon Accountability
Sparkpeople messages daily
Talking with Sponsor
Talking with Accountability partners

emoticon What goes in the mouth
between 1450 - 1750 calories a day
Plan at least a day in advance, don't go to bed without knowing what I'm going to eat tomorrow
I can eat whatever I want, but in appropriate portions (If I want the cookie I'll plan it in!)

emoticon How much I move my body
Stay off the couch more, do dishes, laundry, play outside with the kids - stay moving more than sitting
Go to the gym 4 days a week. Equal cardio/ flexibility/ strength (Push myself)

Honestly until I reach the 180 day mark I'm not going to weigh myself! I'm too obsessed with the number on that stupid scale! I'm obsessed with seeing 150 and that's not healthy for me!!! My ultimate goal is to be able to have another baby, I want a normal pregnant body that a bump shows after only a few months instead of the 8th month!!! I want a flatter stomach, tight arms, and muscular legs. I want definition not a number!

I'm making a new motivational paper this weekend, I want to see the difference in my body because in my mind I still look the same, nothing's changed enough to make me like myself anymore.

::: Updated 7:30 pm:::
Well Day 1 will have to start tomorrow, which is okay, I cannot make exceptions for myself anymore, take it easy on myself! I had some sweetened tea today, and candied pineapples, when I know better I just closed to mind to it and ate it anyway.

I WILL get back on track!! emoticon

Also tomorrow is mine and my husband's 4 year wedding anniversary!!!
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    You've already lost so much weight. You can't give up on yourself now
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