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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Went to the beauty shop yesterday. My regular beautician wasn't there but another lady took me. They always have to sit you in front of this big mirror when they do your hair. I always purposely tried not to look in the mirror at myself because I didn't like what I saw. I always saw this "fat person" who seemed to fail at just about everything - or so I thought.

You see, I grew up not knowing if my name was Jesus Christ, God Dam It for Half Ass (sorry for the language Lord). That was all I ever heard growing up. Nothing I did ever seemed to be right or good enough to my parents. I was always an embarassment to them because of my weight. Well, not any more!!! No way!!!!

Today, the beautician was almost done trimming my hair and she said "You've lost weight! A lot of weight!". Well, I looked in the mirror and I actually saw a face - my face - that looked like I remembered it looking like when I was much, much younger (about 45 years ago or so). For the first time, I can actually say I liked what I saw in that mirror. I couldn't believe what I was seeing or feeling. It was such an great feeling - a feeling that I never thought I'd feel again in this life time.

I've crossed over a big hurdle but I don't plan on quitting here. I plan on continuing on with my journey which will continue for a life time. This journey isn't something that you start on and when you finish your weight loss you quit. This is a life-long journey. It takes work - - lots of hard work, especially when you are a diabetic type 2, have as many physical disabilities to work around as I have and as many of you have also. It now feels like a journey worth taking; one that I will never regret. I have been on so many dfferent "diets" and have failed, but I'm not failing this time. I'm going to persevere!!! I've taken my life back.

I can do it!! You can do it!! WE CAN DO IT!!!!!!

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    Judy, congratulations!! It's pretty strange how we can't see what's right in front of us. Thankfully, others can see, and get us to see, our progress and our worth. You're right about the journey not ending, and I'm glad about that.

    2373 days ago
    Oooooh these are those ah ha moments that you hold onto and will carry you through any struggles you have. I love when I read about peoples moments it makes me so happy inside. You are changing your life and doing this for the rest of it and your learning how joyous it will be as you continue!
    2375 days ago
  • SPIRIT42013
    Wonderfully happy for you! Yes, you are right about lifelong! So, go for the gusto! emoticon
    2375 days ago
    I'm so happy for you! You are right diets don't work but this does because it is a lifestyle change with all the support we need to succeed. Thank you .
    2375 days ago
    wonderful blog!
    It made my night to read this!
    2376 days ago
  • MINUS44
    What a wonderful uplifting post, thank you for sharing, We can do it!!
    2376 days ago
  • JUNEAU2010
    I have tears in my eyes! This is wonderful!
    2376 days ago
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