I wish I could be so many things.
I'm not trying to be down on myself, I swear. I just am not one for inaction, or for settling, and as far as my weight goes, I have been inactive and settling for far, far too long, and that has impacted my life in many ways...in many negative ways.
For example, I wish I was more confident. It sounds simple enough, and around my friends, people I trust and know, I am. I can tell jokes and laugh and be amazing like no tomorrow. I know my worth. Trust me, I know I'm awesome. But when it comes to new people, men especially, well, I clam up, self confidence goes out the window and I might as well be part of the paint on the walls or carpet on the floor.
Pretty sad for a 28 year old. At this rate maybe I'll get married...never.
I wish my body would let me exercise at the level I WANT to exercise at and stop being so darn slow! I hate that getting stronger takes so long. I want to be able to lace up my shoes and RUN...or jog at least for longer than 60 seconds. I know, I know, I should be proud of every single accomplishment, but it's just taking SO LONG. UGH.
This is typically the point I begin to fall off the wagon. Because my body doesn't keep up with where my head wants to be. Stupid, slow body.
And see that's the thing. I let my inactivity run my life. I allowed myself to settle for finding comfort in food--not in challenging my body or myself. And these choices are choices I have to live with. And I'm paying for it.
And I've chose the different path. And I don't regret any experience I have gone through--it's all made me stronger. But I do wish I had been smarter and taken better care of myself instead of taking better care of others first.
On the plus side, I know my body will eventually catch up with the goals in my head. I know eventually the strenght training will pay off and my knees will be stronger, my arms will be more toned, and my body will be able to handle whatever I throw at it.
I just wish I was more patient :)