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Looking for Myself

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

This morning I woke up thinking it was too early to be up. I thought of going back to bed until a better hour showed up. I kept thinking and wondering why I would want to go back to bed if I had a full night's rest and was physically ready to start the day. That is, physically I am ready to start the day. The mind is the one holding up progress.

Then, what could possibly be my problem? I find that I need directions or approval from someone else. Where is my accountability? I find that I respond better when someone else is approving or pushing me on. These are things that I should be proud to do for myself. I have basically gone through life waiting for someone else to lay out directions for my life.

This morning, I have found what I want from myself. Others, have their own issues & can't always be there for my situations. I am extremely proud to say this morning I have my own agenda to perform without directions or approval from someone else. At my age, I am still learning who I am and what it is I want for me.

This is not to say, in any way, that I do not need friends for their guidance and love. I definitely do. But, instead of taking all their time because of my needs, I am ready to give to those who have been kind and considerate to me or anyone else who may need me. There is nothing worse than being alone. So, the comfort of friends chases the aloneness away. I love sharing and it is a fact you can only share so much with yourself. One of the things I have decided this morning, I am going to take the time to share the marvels of life with others.

This morning I was looking around wondering what I wanted from me. I want to enjoy me, comfort me, and approve of me no matter what my endeavor. As long as I am trying to do something positive for myself I can really do no wrong. I just have to keep repeating those things that are good for me. I may, on occasion, have to take "one step back to take two steps forward." That is quite alright because I will be the first to admit I am not perfect.

Now that I have found me and as my friend, I hope you will come along with me on my journey to getting to know what I can do for myself and for us.

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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Thank you for sharing. I often feel that I am my own worst enemy, and that I never approve of myself. Time to turn that negative thinking around!!
    2033 days ago
  • KERRYG155
    We are doing this for ourselves and our health and yet sometimes it is really hard to keep pushing ourselves without help from others. Hopefully most of the time we are strong enough to push ourselves to the finish line.
    2039 days ago
    Good job
    2039 days ago
    Excellent blog. It is very important to be able to depend on yourself and know that you will be sufficient to meet all your own needs. It's empowering. It gives one great peace of mind and allows unlimited growth.
    2039 days ago
    emoticon emoticon I have found myself feeling this way and I enjoyed this very much. I do hope that you continue to discover yourself and how you can make the most of YOU.

    No one said the road was easy........its the climb that makes it special.
    2039 days ago
  • JO28352
    Thanks for sharing. Wishing you the best.
    2039 days ago
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