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Sunday, September 16, 2012

First, thanks to my amazing friends who read my blog and left encouragement, advice, and some tough love. I can't tell you how much I appreciate all the goodies, messages and sparkmail.

While I was at camp this weekend, I had tons of time to reflect on my journey and decide what it is that I want. It's so difficult to find the strength to continue on when you have to fight for every ounce lost. I know a lot of you know how that is. I'm glad to say, I've found my strength. Who knew it was at the TOP of a hill I'd been hiking all summer?!?

I decided to reflect on my life while we were hiking Saturday morning, and we got to the bottom of the hill that takes us back to camp. I stood there looking at this hill, and then I realized this hill represented the last of my journey. It's not a terribly long hill, but it's steep. Steep enough that you could lose your breath just by walking up it fast enough. My kids and husband were a little ways back, Katy LOVES to pick flowers, and I just up and started to run up this hill. Halfway up I felt like I had to stop. I have't run in a month, let alone uphill. But I heard my kids yelling, "keep going mommy! Way to go mommy!" They are all the strength I need. I made it to the top, out of breath for sure, but I made it. I didn't quit, and I didn't die! I realized at the top of the hill that I WILL finish this.

I'm going to shift my focus from losing weight, to REALLY toning my body. I not a fan of strength training, but I know I have to do it. Instead of doing cardio 6 days a week and strength training ZERO... I'm going to get back to running and going out for a REALLY GOOD run 3 days a week, and do some EXCELLENT strength training the other 3 days. I've always felt so bogged down when I was trying to do both on the same day. It always gave me a reason to skip one or the other (usually the ST). That's not to say that if I feel good, I can't do some cardio on an ST day.

As for the food, I know how to eat right, I just need to stick with food I plan. I do a meal plan for the week every Sunday. There is NO reason why I can't stay on plan, I've just been finding excuses not to. NO MORE! I also need to get my water flowing again. I was drinking almost a gallon a day, but lately, it's barely been 5-6 glasses.

Finally, I need to stop dwelling on the "goal weight" and focus on the fact that I'm SO much happier and healthier. I'm also pretty damn pleased with the way I look ; ) I need to remember this and know that if I'm doing the right things, sticking with exercise and good foods, it will all fall into place. I know I'll get into those size 8 jeans... that have been hanging on the back on my bedroom door for 2 YEARS... it just may not be this year. I also know that I'll have tons of support even if it takes me ANOTHER 2 years to get there.

Alright sparkpeeps, tomorrow is DAY 1... IT'S ON!!!
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    aww! that is sooo awesome your kids were cheering you on like that. spontaneously. i could almost see it. and it was soo sweet and inspiring. like from a movie. so cool
    and yOU DID IT!! and those size 8s? wont be too much longer. i believe it can be this year. :)
    and i need to focus on toning now too. so that was pretty cool. i was like yeh. MEEE TOO SISTAH! so i hear ya! YOU CAN DO IT :)

    thanks for sharing all this. it was so nice to hear what your going through and what you aspire to!


    2033 days ago
    excellent!!! I hope you are doing well and staying focused. (send some of it my way!)

    2034 days ago
    Time to rock it out Holly!
    2035 days ago
    You just rock on with your bad self!!!
    2035 days ago
    That's what I'm talking about! Can't believe I missed this blog! I guess my MIA this last week caused that! Way to go Holly! Keep pushing and inspiring! Count me in on the fan club when it gets started!! :) emoticon
    2036 days ago
    Yay! You have the right attitude! I am excited for you to run! I have a hard time sometimes doing strength on the same days as cardio, and I am constantly trying to figure out how to do this. I try to run 3 days a week, unless something comes up and I can't, and I'll do something else. I try to do strength training twice a week, but last week only did once. I need to make sure I do that too. The problem I am having lately is that I am starving on the days after my long runs. My long runs used to be 4 or 5 miles, and now the long ones are 8-10, so I feel hungry all the time and it's hard not to snack. I end up snacking and then I maintain instead of losing. I know you'll do great on your turkey trot! I can't wait for the half marathon to get here so I can just do it already!
    2037 days ago
    Great attitude, great blog and I can relate to the fight for every ounce lost as can many, many others.

    Thanks for being there to validate us all!
    2038 days ago
    Great attitude, Holly!
    2038 days ago
  • PATIB13
    Thinking about your kids cheering you on just about made me cry (the bad part I am at work)....You go Holly! You are such an inspiration and you have been such a great spark friend, thanks for sharing your journey and letting me a part of that process.
    2042 days ago
    emoticon I can feel the motivation in your voice! ST is so important! it took me a long time to realize this too. Those size 8's will be moving to the front of your bedroom door in no time!! emoticon emoticon
    2042 days ago
    You're right -- we need to look at our tone as well as our weight. Thanks for the reminder!
    2043 days ago
    I hope you are kicking Day 1's ass today!!!!
    2043 days ago
    Way to go you. I only just decided myself to get that goal weight out of my head. I've set new goals. I agree it's hard to do ST and cardio. I need to figure out myself how to do both because for me as well one usually gets dropped. Way to climb that hill, you are a super star.
    2043 days ago
    That's a great mind set Holly :-)
    2043 days ago
    I have tears thinking about your journey and your reflection. So glad you took the time to listen to your inner voice and act on it. Just like your back ground it is a season of change. I am glad you gave yourself some time this summer.... welcome back!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2043 days ago
    You go girl! You CAN make it up the hill, you CAN make it to the top and stay on top too! Love the attitude!

    Strength training is SO important. Maybe it doesn't make you feel as sweaty and out of breath as cardio, but you are burning good stuff and building better stuff while you're at it!

    I also LOVE your new background, makes me get the fall warm n' fuzzies!


    2043 days ago
    Strength training is where it's at mama. Even though the Mr and I haven't lost a ton of weight, we're thinning out and I have to believe it's due to strength training and we only do it twice a week. Pump dat iron!

    2043 days ago
    Welcome back emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2043 days ago
    You go girl!!! You can do it and now that you got the fire lit you will get to your pants in no time. You are such an inspiration.
    2044 days ago
    emoticon I am so happy to read this! I am glad that a fire is offically literally lit under your butt, and I can't wait to hear about how this works out for you. I used to be shy away from strength training, doing a poor attempt but now I don't and I am so glad. I like the way fitness makes you feel and the changes it makes physically. I like that you already have a pair of size 8's waiting for you and that you aren't making crazy plans to get into them. You are inspiring emoticon
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    2044 days ago
    I think you're going to do just great! And congratulations on your decision to add strength training to your weekly schedule. You'll feel changes on your body you never thought possible! Focus on getting strong and be kind to your body in every way.
    The last part of the journey is always the hardest but I'm sure you can do this!
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    2044 days ago
    Woot! Woot! emoticon emoticon Your emoticon emoticon
    2044 days ago
    Oh wow, Holly's fired up! Yes! I'm with you girl!I'm so proud of you. Truly.
    2044 days ago
    You can do this! Enough lollygagging around (is that even a word? Totally spelled wrong-I'm sure!) and back to the grind. You can absolutely add strength training. It is so important! Since I've been walking as my primary exercise for the entire summer I've lost a lot of my muscle. My 50 mile walk is next weekend and as soon as I'm done with (and rested for about a week!) I'm going to start P90X again and going back to tae kwon do. Let's do this! :)
    2044 days ago
    Good for you, sweetie!! I'll keep rooting for you!!!!
    2044 days ago
    Awesome job!! I love that your kids helped get you up that hill with their encouragement! Keep going, girlie!! You can (and will) do this!!!
    2044 days ago
    THAT is what I'm talking about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are sooo right we both can do this. We didn't come this far to stop!!!!! It's time to run up that hill!!!!

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    2044 days ago
    I am behind you 100%!!! And really, strength training CAN be fun if you get into the right kind. If you're just using barbie pink 2-lb weights, it's BORING! But real strength training that really pushes your body can be just as much fun as cardio, more so sometimes. I know you can do this! I like the idea of alternating. Right now my schedule is such that I have a cardio class on two of my ST days, and I can't change either one easily, and that's hard!! I'd rather go back and forth! I can't wait to see how this goes for you. Do you know what ST program you're going to use? I know there are a couple of really good ones out there!

    I realized just this weekend that I'm really happy with the way my body looks, too. Not 100%, I'm not all the way there yet, but I realized that even with a little extra weight on me, I look curvy and fun, and not fat anymore. That was a good realization. Toning will help, so that's what I'm going to focus on! :)
    2044 days ago
  • NANAGO1204
    I am sooo excited for you! I teared up reading this...I felt some of your joy!! I have loved walking all my life...well at least since I realized walking to my friends house was an option. :) ...and the tops of hills are a favorite destination when the opportunity presents itself so for just a few seconds I was up there with you. Thanks for sharing...lad to hear you have your motivation back. emoticon
    2044 days ago
    Sounds like a great plan!!

    You are so awesome so I know you can do it
    2044 days ago
    Yippee!!! you ran to the top of the hill!!! WTG. That probably did more for your conviction than anything else ever could. You are a healthy, strong committed woman and you have a goal. To be your healthy self every day. Move over complacency, attitude is coming through!!!

    2044 days ago
  • COOKIE_AT_51
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    2044 days ago
    Way to go!
    2044 days ago

    Very inspiring!
    2044 days ago
    Woo hoo! Super inspired by your blog! I've read that being super consistent is the way to lose those last few stubborn pounds. You have a solid plan. Can't wait to see your success! Get it done!
    2044 days ago
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