Saturday, September 15, 2012
I feel strong emotions of excitement within me. It is like a volcano of happiness smouldering away preparing to burst out of me ... maybe its time for me to start running :)
I took some pics last night ...
... to capture my size. Pics not so clear but gives an idea.
On Friday I was at a buffet (UGH!!!) for a farewell lunch. Of course I went overboard ... but not as bad as I once would have. I noticed an interesting thing - I'm really addicted to food. That sounds stupid, but it was an awakening that I had immediately after I finished eating (when I was in the toilet actually).
I realised that as soon as I crossed the threshold of how much I should ACTUALLY eat, it became a free for all ... awful. The auto pilot kicked in and all rationality left ... numbness set in - But this time something happened before I went too far in - I STOPPED IT! I realised that don't have to succumb to the 'mindless comforting' of myself anymore ... I HAVE FULL CONTROL OVER IT ... I just have to remember that!
So this is why I am so excited ... these small insights are adding up to a very clear understanding of how I can meet my goals and that I WILL ACTUALLY MEET MY GOALS!!!
YUSS! YUSS! YUSS!