BLC 20, Day 2...Dreadful Thursday
Friday, September 14, 2012
I'm sure everyone has those people in your lives that are truly frustrating...just the sight of them makes you want to climb the walls. My daughter is in Girl Scouts, has been for a few years. The troop has gone through some leadership changes, and the current leaders are not exactly the nicest people. I've tried changing troops, but my daughter is stubborn and wants to stay with her friends. I try every time to just bite my tongue, but every time I have an interaction with them, I just want to snap! Last night was the first meeting for the year, and my son accidentally dropped some supplies on the floor. I needed him to go sit with his sister for a minute, and I cleaned up the supplies. The leader waited till I was almost done (on my hands and knees in front of her) before she helped me pick up the stuff, and then it was only one item then she walked away. Ugh! I know it wasn't her fault the stuff fell, but common courtesy would go such a long way sometimes.
I am very much an emotional eater...I've been trying to curb it, but it's really hard. I stopped at McDonald's on the way home.
I knew it was wrong, but my mind told me differently. I've been so used to swallowing my hurt that I'm pretty sure it was just instinct. I just need to retrain my body to not do this anymore.
I also just realized that with this food, I sabotaged my BF's day, too.
He's been doing so much better with his eating since I started my challenges. He's really been trying to keep up with me...even suggesting that we join the YMCA so he can start swimming every day again and I'll have exercise equipment, personal trainers, and exercise classes available for me. He had just told me how great he had eaten at lunch. He finished off a bag of raw carrots, and had cut calories out of his sandwich. I feel terrible.
So today, I'm going to fill out the packet for the YMCA. I'm going to the grocery store today afterdonating plasma and pick up some seafood (his favorite food). I'll take a nap while he's gone today (he's got two interviews today, hooray!) and then I'll try to get him to go for a walk with me.
Today's going to be a better day. I just know it! Happy Friday, everybody!