My last blog gives just a tip of the iceburg of how dramatic things can be, especially when my aunt is involved. I have since then made my drama known, and have cleared up that, .....but it was in exchange for like 5 days of eating and not tracking, and soda, and pasta... ugh. I got a few days of minor exercise I am going to track, but not to seem blunt, but it was also that time of month, and I felt soooo unrooted. I wasn't myself, I even think the food consumption change helped with keeping my mood down, the cramping just kept me from exercising or cleaning the house.
Either way I have to do my part and be healthy, and crawl out of this slow metabolism.
I was doing so good last week. I was exercising when I didn't want to, the most I have ever sweat in my life. Walking to pick my Daughter up from school, even right after a tiring workout... I was diligent, I was determined, I was happy, proud! I missed that this week, very badly.
I have come to a conclusion. The next gathering, get-to-gether, visit, etc that there is food involved, soda, etc, I just have to steer away. I am a food addict, and I cant balance out things right. With having kids also, I have to keep the items around that I am not tempted to eat, which is good for them also, because they eat more handy fruits, and no fast foods etc.
I have to make it known to my whole family at every occasion!! that I have a goal, I have a routine, and I am weak when it comes to eating. I have to CONTINUE TO REMIND THEM obviously because they are not me, I am in charge of me. correct? I will not lose weight or be healthy when I know what I am doing wrong...
So, its my choice next time I am at a gathering or whatnot where theres any kinds of food, and I overinduldge. My own choice, and I have to learn that. I may have lost over 50lbs at 1 point with Sparkpeople, but I am not a pro at losing weight. Everyone has barriers we have to educate ourselves on to be healthier.
It throws me off the wagon, literally, being drug with my foot stuck in the wheel, faceplanted into the concrete, being drug along until I am ready to do something about it.
I do know one thing: The longer time I spend on Sparkpeople here, the more better I feel. Its amazing. This morning I felt like crap, I said to myself, oh, lemme sign on finally and get some sparkpoints, and update my status, and WHAM-O! I feel like I am a lot better. I love this sight. Everyone makes it worth while.
So here is to feeling a bit better, and if anything, today I will eat better, even if I cant exercise like crazy. I am ready to be back on my routine.