Hakuna matata

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

After spending half the night worried about money and my weight and Lee's two shelves of sweets that he moved for me... into the pantry... right by the rest of the food... I decided I'm not going to worry anymore.
They take the car, they take the car. My focus is roof over head, electricity, water, phone, and food. I can learn to ride a bus. My mother in law said she'd help with rent until I get a job so why worry about it? I will not cry if they turn off our cable. I don't watch tv anyways. They take our internet, I'll go to the library.
Things will suck for our roomate because everything is in my name. But he's Josh's friend and a pain in my butt so I'll let Josh deal with him. If the internet and cable bother him so much, he can pay for it now and we can pay him back later. With all the times we helped him out in Texas and never asked for anything back, he can kiss my royal rear end if he thinks I'm going to worry about him having to pay more to play TF2 and Battlefeild. He moved in with us so he wouldn't have to pay for an apartment for one person, we moved the bulk of his stuff up here with us in our uhaul and never asked for any money, he pays barely anything for utilities because we split the bills up 5 ways (4 for my family, 1 for him), when I cook dinner I always invite him to eat some of it with us because there's no point in 2 dinners being made, I walk his dog 5 times a day, I clean the apartment every day. Truth is he owes me big time.
And the fit that he threw because I asked him to not put sweets all around our house yesterday royally pissed me off. I said "it's hard for me to tell my kids and myself no if thats what we see on top of the fridge, in the fridge, in the pantry, by the couch, and on the counter". He replied "It's my house too." I know that but be respectful of your roomates. I don't just vacuum around his dogs fur on our couch, I wash his dishes, I don't leave my underwear on top of the dryer, I don't touch his stuff, because its the right thing to do. So if you see someone struggling you help them.
And Josh had to step in to get Lee to listen. I don't think the guy understands how much of a pain he really is as a person. But I work really hard to not see the bad side of people. I work really hard to try and be understanding.
So Hakuna Matata. I'm going to let life change me anymore. There is always going to be a Lee in my life. There's always going to be money issues. There's always going to be temptations on the counter or in the pantry. I'm going to live life the BEST that I can and not worry about the rest. If I win, I win. If I lose I lose. But I'm not going to worry anymore.
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  • _JODI404
    Great attitude Kaura!! It may not be easy, but you can do it!!!! emoticon
    2622 days ago
  • 123ELAINE456
    You need to have 100% SUPPORT from your HUSBAND!!! Have one place in the house for all their Sweets out of Sight from Everyone. Maybe you can enlist the support of your Mother In Law too. That would help too. Don't make Yourself sick over this. Its not worth it. You will be able to get through this. This Soon Shall Pass. God Loves You and Is Watching Over You. God Bless You, Your Husband, The Room Mate and Family. Have a Wonderful Week. I been through alot of things like this so I understand how upsetting this is for You. Keep Looking Up. Keep Bloging. We are here for You. HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    2623 days ago
  • DONNA5281

    You need to tell Lee exactly how you feel. If he doesn't like it to bad.
    Does he have a job, if so he needs to help out more. It seems like you have helped him plenty. Now it is his turn to help you!
    Some people just think of themselves.
    If you continue to worry, you will make yourself sick.

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    2623 days ago
    Boo to having Lee's in your life. I would throw a temper tantrum complete with screams of IT'S NOT FAIR!!!! We have money issues as well so I understand completely the worry over money. Good luck and I hope things get easier for you
    2623 days ago
    I am sorry that your roommate is such a poohead. He needs a swift kick you know where. Wish I could be of more help as a good friend should be. Dont let those stressors get to you, you dont want to end up like me by worry and things you have no control of. Just remember you do have friends that luv you mucho! emoticon
    2623 days ago
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