Day 1 - Demonic Scales and Mood Swings
Monday, September 10, 2012
Just joined today and I'm very excited to be here! While I am considered healthy, I've put on weight the past few years. I'm currently at 145 (according to the demonic scale I own) lbs. and my goal is to lose 15 lbs by September 2013. I would really just like to lose 5 lbs. first. I keep yo-yo-ing between 143 and 150 lbs; it's been like this for the past two months.
I am an every-emotion eater: when I am happy, sad, angry, frustrated, annoyed, overwhelmed, depressed, and/or bored, my reaction is to eat - usually cheese with chips 'n salsa. For the past two months, I've been trying to make better choices (grapes instead of cheese), eat right, and exercise, but I'm always aware I'm one mood swing away from slipping.
I realize (and have for quite some time) that I will never, ever, be / look the way I did when I was 21 and 118 lbs. I like food too much and frankly, I don't want to put the work required in. What I do want: I want to be healthy, I want energy, I want strength, I want flexibility. I've been trying for two months,alone. I have the love and support of my fiancé, but I joined SP because I really like the idea of a support community - a place I can go when I'm overwhelmed and on the cusp of slipping.
Today was a good day. Wasn't able to exercise today, but ate very healthy and didn't snack.