Saturday, September 08, 2012
I'm feeling much better than a few days ago when I posted my last blog. Think it's for several reasons; felt immediately better after voicing my concerns, the support was amazing and made me feel so supported and let me know I'm not alone in my feelings or my struggle, have been taking my meds regularly and lastly weather has cooled down, finally! :)
Before I forget I want to say a huge
to everyone that responded to my last post. It helped me so much!
My mind continued to stew over my last post and the middle of the night I woke up and realized that I was so upset because I didn't care enough to change and didn't want to change but obviously I do care about changing or I would not have gotten upset about not wanting to do it. I don't know if this will make sense to anyone else but I needed to voice my idea on this. I may feel like there are two parts of me struggling but I do care or why else would it bother me that I don't want to change.
There may be a lot about me I want to change but as a friend just reminded me today
"The woman who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.” - Chinese Proverb