The girl in the workout video and the girl in my closet.

Friday, September 07, 2012

When I first started working out with the Chalene Johnson DVD's, if I watched myself in the mirror, I felt upset. I'd look at the women in the workout videos, and wish I could be more like them, and less like me. I kept telling myself that the only way to do that was to KEEP working out, even though it made me sad to see how far I had to go.

There was one woman in particular, whose body looked like something I might possibly attain one day (you know, she had boobs and curves, but was really fit). She is Chalene's sister, and I love the way she moves, and how fit she looks. She was my goal body.

Well, this week, I was working out, and I looked in the mirror and thought, "you know? I'm pretty dang close to the girl in the workout video!" I'm not perfect, not by a long shot, but I really think I like my body at least as much as hers. Maybe even more, because I had to work for this one, and I get to feel how good it feels. Even more important than looking closer to my role model? ENJOYING my workout the way she does. I smile the whole time now. I do extra workouts, and I KNOW I FEEL as good doing it as she does!

I had such a great workout, that I made my smallish daughter take a couple of pictures of me, right there, all sweaty after kicking it for 45 minutes. Here I am... 20 pounds down from where I started, and 2 pounds under my initial goal for SP.

The girl in my closet? Well, she feels a little weird. Some of my old favorites, you know, the ones I used to love because they made me feel slender even when I really felt puffy? They don't look good on me anymore. I actually gave away two of my old favorite shirts, because I couldn't make them look right on me. It was so much harder to do than I expected. I had planned on keeping all my favorites, but looking better in them. It doesn't seem to be working out that way, which should make me happy-ish, but it leaves me feeling a bit strange. The girl in my closet can't wear her most favorite outfits anymore.

It is full of constant changes, this journey. Some that really make me smile, and some that make me feel wistful. I'm glad I have sparkfriends to bounce it all off of. You guys are the good stuff!
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    Congratulations! I think as a reward it is time to invest in new favorite outfits that you will wear for a long time as you maintain your new and fabulous physique! I'm happy for you and your vitality and hot bod!
    2259 days ago
    Go buy your favorite outfits again - Just in a smaller size. Great Job keep up with all your hard work. It sure is paying off. And you will be a good, no wait, a great roll model for your children

    2259 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/15/2012 11:08:21 AM
  • BICKEY11
    I am secretly, or not so secretly jealous. I haven't gotten to the point where I have the balls to post a pic with that much skin showing. Hopefully soon! Congrats, and forget that lady in the closet her clothes are frumpy!
    2261 days ago
    Great blog. I'm still working on being friends with the girl in the mirror. It's strange for me because I typically like everyone. I like making new friends. But I'm having a hard time warming up to the girl in the mirror.

    I had trouble letting go of my red blouses. I love red. I look good in red. Especially that deep garnet color red. It was in style about 3 or 4 years ago. I bought every blouse that I could find because I knew it wouldn't be around very long. They were all XL. At the end of this spring, I packed them all up and gave them away. It made me so sad. I loved those blouses but I was lost in them. Now I'm waiting for red to come back in style.

    You, by the way, look fantastic. Look at how toned your tummy is. All kinds of muscle definition in those abs. And you have Michelle Obama arms!
    2262 days ago
    Time for new favorite outfits! You look amazing and deserve a whole new wardrobe cause...well, you can't wear workout gear all the time. Though I'm betting your class would pay tons of attention to your lectures if you did. And getting rid of clothes means you have empty hangers. Empty hangers need filling.
    2264 days ago
  • OPTIMIST1948
    I know how you feel on Favorite Outfits. I've had to mourn the loss of quite a few. Still, you look GREAT!
    2264 days ago
  • no profile photo GARBLEDEEGOOK
    Glad to hear you like what you see :) Keep up the good work.
    2264 days ago
  • YDAVIS23
    Love the pics! You look great! I too discovered that brand of bra - my favorite is a crossback (Juno?). It's the first time in a decade that I can wear a regular bra - I had been wearing the "last resort" cage from title 9 for quite some time now. You're looking great and you're an inspiration to me!
    2264 days ago
    glad you are liking the girl in the closet more than you used to
    2265 days ago
    This is a great post. I love that you are seeing how great you look, and also realizing that we can never be perfect but we can accept ourselves and be proud.
    You know, it's a good problem to have, not fitting into those clothes anymore :).
    Thanks for your lovely posts on my blog. I really feel so uplifted from your posts as well. I never thought I'd find blogging and posting on Spark to be so helpful, but really, it is. When I read member's posts who are focusing on staying on track and enjoying all the positive changes, it really helps to reinforce all the great efforts.
    So good for you!!!!
    2265 days ago
    If I could get on a plane, I would be there tomorrow first thing and we'd go shopping to find you some NEW favorites! !! Oh, the trouble we could find, hehe. Super proud of you and um, your boobs dont look as big as you say. Good bra and or lost weight there too :) either way, you look AMAZING!!!
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