Still okie dokie after not getting my goal

Thursday, September 06, 2012

Yesterday was HARD nutrition wise. I hit the "cal cutting depression" where I was stressed but I wasn't allowed to have my regular stress relievers. I was angry at the dogs, I was complaining about random stuff on facebook, it was like nothing could make me happy. So I gave into 3 of Josh's huge cookie tray that he keeps buying for him and Lee. Then I felt really bad about the cookies and figured I might as well reach for a few more and just call the day blah.


Instead I reached into the fridge and got some water. Then I did a few job applications and worked on my resume a little more. When those weren't working I dug into my wire and worked on that until it was time to pick the boys up from school.

Things may not be all hunky dory in my life right now. I have no job, we're borrowing money, my sister is still in the hospital (but doing much better), but eating won't fix it no matter how much my brain tells me it will. Unfortunately that doesn't take that "want" for it away. So I'm going to use up the small amount of wire I have left. That way I'm at least bringing in a few dollars, not eating, and feeling like I've accomplished something. Normally this little depression lasts about a week and then my brain finally gives up on the addictive actions.

You may be thinking "You could work it off in the gym" but unfortunately I'm starving after most of my workouts and cravings+starving don't really help me out.

I DID stay in my calorie goal.
I ended with 20 points yesterday so I lost 5 points out of my extra credit that I had earned the last few days.
Josh thinks I should give myself those 5 points for not giving up yesterday but I'm enjoying how proud I am of myself instead. I'm going to take the 5 pts as a learning experience that I don't have to be perfect to be proud.

This is my bracelet that I'm working on

I'll probably have it up on etsy tonight but part of me wants to keep it... like the last 6 that I kept for myself. No wonder I'm broke.

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  • STEFFIE333
    Hang in there...the climb to the top is much sweeter when you've come up from the bottom....LOVE that you have a creative outlet to manage your stress!!

    ps- I am really into flavoured stevia drops (lemon drop, rootbeer, berry etc), such a treat in sparkling mineral water or club soda, no extra calories but yummy! maybe you could treat yourself to something nice...sounds like you deserve it!
    2626 days ago
    emoticon HAng on, Kaura. You're focusing well now.
    I've been enjoying your creations. My sister does beadwork and I love these creations.
    2626 days ago
  • 123ELAINE456
    You are doing okay being as stress out as you are. Be proud of yourself for stopping at three cookies. Try to get back on track. Take a walk to get away from the stress if you can. This soon will pass. God Bless You and the Family. Hope your sister can come home from the hospital very soon. That will help to. Have a Wonderful Week. Have an Enjoyable Day Today too. Take Care of Yourself.
    2627 days ago
    Aw! You're doing great even though you're stressed out. Hugs!
    2627 days ago
    I'm really trying hard not to strive for perfection... it goes against everything I've ever done my whole life. I'm trying to believe that I'm worthy even if I'm not perfect. It's a hard lesson to learn!!
    2627 days ago
  • DONNA5281

    You know what you did and you faced it. I don't think that you need to worry about.
    I love the bracelet.

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    2627 days ago
    Love the bracelet! I was thinking of trying some chain mail designs too. I've only make a couple of simple bracelets.
    2627 days ago
  • ADELE66
    Brava! Brava!! Let's face it... we all know that three cookies is a darn sight better than 12 cookies! And three cookies is not a binge... it's what any regular person might enjoy from time to time. You should feel proud - stopping yourself from turning a minor lapse into a major event is absolutely one of the hardest things to do... and you did it!

    Well done - sending you a virtual pat on the back!

    2627 days ago
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