Still okie dokie after not getting my goal
Thursday, September 06, 2012
Yesterday was HARD nutrition wise. I hit the "cal cutting depression" where I was stressed but I wasn't allowed to have my regular stress relievers. I was angry at the dogs, I was complaining about random stuff on facebook, it was like nothing could make me happy. So I gave into 3 of Josh's huge cookie tray that he keeps buying for him and Lee. Then I felt really bad about the cookies and figured I might as well reach for a few more and just call the day blah.
Instead I reached into the fridge and got some water. Then I did a few job applications and worked on my resume a little more. When those weren't working I dug into my wire and worked on that until it was time to pick the boys up from school.
Things may not be all hunky dory in my life right now. I have no job, we're borrowing money, my sister is still in the hospital (but doing much better), but eating won't fix it no matter how much my brain tells me it will. Unfortunately that doesn't take that "want" for it away. So I'm going to use up the small amount of wire I have left. That way I'm at least bringing in a few dollars, not eating, and feeling like I've accomplished something. Normally this little depression lasts about a week and then my brain finally gives up on the addictive actions.
You may be thinking "You could work it off in the gym" but unfortunately I'm starving after most of my workouts and cravings+starving don't really help me out.
I DID stay in my calorie goal.
I ended with 20 points yesterday so I lost 5 points out of my extra credit that I had earned the last few days.
Josh thinks I should give myself those 5 points for not giving up yesterday but I'm enjoying how proud I am of myself instead. I'm going to take the 5 pts as a learning experience that I don't have to be perfect to be proud.
This is my bracelet that I'm working on
I'll probably have it up on etsy tonight but part of me wants to keep it... like the last 6 that I kept for myself. No wonder I'm broke.