Scaredy Cat

Wednesday, September 05, 2012

I am really scared of dating. I want to do it but I really don't want to do it here. Since I am in grad school I moved to a small town I hate because it was affordable. I have another two to three years here but I don't want to date anyone here. It is just too small and everyone gets in your business. And God forbid I fall for someone who lives here when I am trying to get the heck out of dodge. So I am scared and I want to get it out of my way but not here.

I guess I worry that I am making excuses and wasting time. Yesterday a guy I work with and joke around with held the door for me and said something like, "Hello beautiful lady. Come on in." I just said his sarcasm was not funny. Next time a thank you is fine. This has been a part of keeping weight on. No, I don't feel like I am trying to hide. But when a guy pays me a compliment, I do feel the urge to scuttle away. I want to be a turtle with a shell to hide in.

Thankfully this guy isn't really an option since he is 10+ years younger than me and I know he thinks I am younger than I am. I can use him to practice being comfortable around guys though. I might have to drop my age on him though. I have no game and you have to start somewhere.
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    My husband is 7 years younger than me. Lol. If you look younger, take advantage of it, girl. Also, you will know when the guy you want to date comes along. Try not to pressure yourself into thinking you will or you won't. Go with the flow of each day. In the meantime, maybe look inside and ask yourself where some of these fears are coming from. You go girl!
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