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stepping out of my comfort zone online or putting on a brave face

Monday, September 03, 2012

i recieved some photo´s today by email two of the photos are full frontls of my face after my facial parilise.i know you have all heard me talk about this and in part the effect it has had on my life this past year i thought for me to move on i have to step out of my comfort zone and show you all my spark friends who care and love me.i might add my face has improved alot since theese photos even though my face was alot worse than theese photos.wouldn´t allow anyone to take photos at first.theese photos were taken after several months of intensive physio theraphy.on the second photo though it looks like i am winking that is me actually forcing my eyes close,though at the time my eye wouldn´t close.it only started closing about 8 weeks agao.i hope you all realise how big this step is off me to do this and come out of hiding so to speak.i still have along way to go to be fully comfortable with my face and toignore the stares and comments i still get occassionally from over people but i am working on it-this is the first step of many i hope.thanks once again for supporting me as always you are all special to me and i want you to know that.

you do not know the sick feeling i just got in my stomach and throat down loading theese photos but i am saying to myself no backing out now you can do this.so here is my long overdue photos.
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    I thought you were just winking when I saw the pictures before reading the blog. You look fine, so forget the people who stare!
    1746 days ago
    I just followed the link from your recent December blog to this one....thank you for sharing these. You are so brave to share something so deeply personal! I think you look just fine in these photos anyway, but I can see it was very difficult for you to post these. I really admire you for your guts and your strength and your determination. :)
    1944 days ago
  • DALID414
    You have so much courage, thank you for sharing this intimate part if yourself.
    1945 days ago
    Very, very brave of you to post these. Stay strong - you will succeed!
    1945 days ago
    Karen, you are loved! physical looks is only a small portion of who one is. You are a very beautiful person. You are a very strong woman. You are blessed to still be here, actually we are the ones who are blessed that you are still here. You are one amazing woman with a lot on her plate, but you know how to give to others even more. Karen....I already said it, but you are abundantly loved!!!!!
    1947 days ago
    Karen, you are a very courageous woman and I'm sure this was difficult. I am so proud of you and all that you have done. You are beautiful - inside and out. I am keeping you in my prayers.

    emoticon Mary Anne
    2048 days ago
  • MUSIC66
    that must of been hard to.put.your.photos.up on your spark page..
    2055 days ago
  • MUSIC66
    that must of been hard to.put.your.photos.up on your spark page..
    2055 days ago
  • MUSIC66
    that must of been hard to.put.your.photos.up on your spark page..
    2055 days ago
  • MUSIC66
    that must of been hard to.put.your.photos.up on your spark page..
    2055 days ago
    I just met you on Spark People today and am inspired, it is so scary to go out of your comfort zone and you are incredibly brave to take that step. Thank you for sharing your story.
    2055 days ago
  • SURF@723
    Karen....that took so much guts to do but I am not surprised because you are one very courageous woman! You can step out of your comfort zone and share with us! You are amazing and so beautiful. I am so proud to be your friend!

    Keep healing and smiling......and most of all keep just being you!!!

    2056 days ago
  • JHUSTO01
    I think you are a brave and beautiful woman.
    2056 days ago
    Among the stories related in the books of hadith and sirah is the report that once an old woman came to the Prophet and said: "O Messenger of Allah, pray to Allah that I will enter Paradise." He said jokingly, "O Mother of So-and-so, no old women will enter Paradise." The old woman went away crying , so the Prophet said, Say to the woman that one will not enter in a state of old age, but Allah will make all the women of Jannah young virgins. Allah says, Lo! We have created them a (new) creation and made them virgins, lovers, equal in age. (Quran 56:35-37).

    Our outward appearance in this world is nothing compared to the beauty that we will have when we enter Jannah so our worldly body and looks are only temporary, but in the Hereafter, Allah will make us beautiful in His sight. :)
    2058 days ago
    Karen, thanks for sharing with us, we know you are beautiful inside and out. Your progress is amazing, keep up the good work
    ps, you can wink at me anytime emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2058 days ago
  • JUDITH1654
    Exposing yourself with these photos is the first giant step toward your total healing. It took a lot of schmoozy to do that and I admire you for it. Ya got guts, Gal! Thanks for sharing and exposing your innermost soul to us all. What an inspiration you are to us all!
    2058 days ago
  • ~ELLE~
    Karen, so proud of you. You are beautiful inside and out. You are such an inspiration to me and everyone you come in touch with. Sending hugz and good vibes your way
    2058 days ago
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    2058 days ago
  • GERRI4
    You are definitely a very brave woman to step out of your comfort zone and you are a true inspiration to me and all of us here. Plus you can see by those photos just how much weight you have lost (compared to the photos in your background) which is just emoticon
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    2059 days ago
  • DEE797
    I am glad you stepped out of your comfort zone to share what you have been going through with us. You are a very strong and brave woman. You are always there for us with a kind word. We are here for you always. Wishing you all the best as you continue to get better. emoticon emoticon
    2059 days ago
    Karen, you have many gifts that you share with us and give to us and now as others have said, I am adding courage. Thank you for having the hutzpah to share your progress with us dear friend. Never, ever stop working on and loving YOU. We love you inside and out! emoticon
    2059 days ago
  • B-N-ME
    Karen, Great job stepping out of your comfort zone. We love you just the way you are and are glad you are improving!!
    As I have told you many times, you are a source of encouragement for others and sunshine on cloudy days!!
    Your are a beautiful person and I am so glad that things were not worse...
    Keep healing, keep smliing and most of all keep being the Karen we adore!
    2059 days ago
    I'm glad you stepped out of your comfort zone so we could meet you face-to-face. Remember to start each day by saying something kind to the woman in your mirror. Feel the love from yourself as well as the rest of us.
    2059 days ago
    Karen -- you are beautiful inside and out. You have made the best of a difficult medical issue and have been fighting back with so much strength, bravery, and dignity. See this as a very proud step in your recovery. It did take a lot of inner strength to post these and you were able to do it. Be proud that you are taking your fears head on and winning.

    We love you and am proud to call you a friend.

    2059 days ago
    You are a very brave woman... there is no doubt about that...

    You are also a strong woman and that my dear friend is something to also commend you on!

    2059 days ago
    You're very brave, and I think you're doing great! Keep it up!
    2059 days ago
  • 4BOYZ4ME
    Karen my love, you have always been an inspiration to me by your grace in handling what life throws at you, your kind words to everyone, and your beautiful spirit. Now I get to add your bravery to that list. I know that this wasn't easy for you but you continue to inspire by showing everyone how to move outside of their comfort zones.

    You are truly beautiful my love, inside and out. Thank you for sharing these with us.

    2059 days ago
    I think you are beautiful. You look great and you are a wonderful person.

    2059 days ago
  • CHRIS3874
    Wow keep at it.
    2059 days ago
    A few years ago, my aunt had a major stroke and half her face was paralyzed. I know that has been very hard for her. I think you're very brave to post, and just know we'll all support you!
    2059 days ago
    Karen my Sweet Loving Friend ..
    You are looking great ..
    You are still improving from when we were chatting on Skype .
    Look at all the weight you have lost!! that is awesome ...
    I love that you have finally chosen to post a new photo ..
    How are your little rascals and Lotfi?
    You have had so many health problems and I can see you are winning the battle ...
    Keep up the therapy ... it is really helping !!
    Much love my lovely friend !! Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2059 days ago
    I'm struggling with the recent loss of my smile as a side effect from neck surgery. Mine suppose to come back with in a few months. I'm fortunate. Hugs to you and your bravery. May your bravery somehow help you in your healing. Wishing you the best on your journey.
    2059 days ago
    Karen, thank you! Most of us hesitate to post photos of ourselves (even though we may tell ourselves that we do not care what others think). Even Spiritual people, and I count myself here, who realize that it's not the body that is important, still hesitate to post photos, dress up or even to be seen in public (in extreme cases).

    Remember, honey, you are a PERFECT child of the One, no matter how you believe you look on the outside - to yourself or to 'others!'

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    2059 days ago
    Thank you for sharing these very special pictures of you. It helps us see you as you are and adds something to the whole picture (pardon the pun)
    Your bravery does you justice, it is done now and you are stronger for having faced the demon.
    We are your friends, we care about you, not the packaging!
    2059 days ago
    So glad you've taken this step, and I know it's only the start for you. emoticon
    2059 days ago
    To actually put these photos up took a lot of courage - but Karen - they aren't so bad and they are you!! We none of us are perfect - we all wish we had other features - and you are just the same - I have no teeth - haven't had for 3 yrs - I look like an old hag - but it can't stop my life - I get on and live - at the start it bothered me a bit - now - too bad - if people want to look - so let them look - but very few do - the worst thing is that I can't chew nuts (I grind them though)!!
    Stop bothering - stop thinking about it - accept that its you - and you are a wonderful person - that you have heaps to give so nothing is going to spoil your life!!
    2059 days ago
    I can't imagine how hard this was for you. You are so pretty!!!!! You,look so thin in the picture compared to your background pic.

    2059 days ago
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