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Monday, September 03, 2012

There are about a million things I want to share in this post but I really and truly do not know where to start. This is both a time of great achievements for myself and a time of struggle. I am running better than ever before despite my knee issues and yet at the same time I am constantly battling something that is going on with my body....what it is, we still do not know. I have days where my energy is high and my mood is normal and then there are days where I feel as if I am walking through mud and I have no motivation to continue on. This is the harsh reality I am facing right now. I feel as if there is no balance. I feel as if I am letting so many people down and I am not allowed to struggle or somehow I am not allowed to be going through this. It is hard....

I have changed a few things in my diet that seem to be helping with my overall energy and so I am hoping that things will start looking up. Saturday I had one of the best runs ever. It was my 16 miler....which I am going to write a another blog about it all...with details, but needless to say, I did very well and I felt amazing ( finished 2:44 with a big smile).....and ALL DAY, my energy was on fire, far more than the days before. It was as if I was a changed person.

I am taking a few blends for my Thyroid and my Adrenals along with trying to eat certain foods that will help boost my Serotonin levels. I hope this helps....something seems to be working though today has been quite hard. Very hard in fact. I guess it is just barrier that I am going to have to bust through, but I am not giving up!

For today, I wanted to list my training for this week along with my meals for today. I HAVE to get back tracking as it is key for me and now that I am dealing with this energy issue, we need to see what is working and what I need to change. Below are my main nutrient goals.....

1. Make sure I have a good source of protein with each meal.
2. For my marathon training - make sure I am fueling properly 2 days prior to my long runs.....this last week I had great success with adding in fruits as my main carb source ( bananas, blueberries, apple and pineapple) along with a good amount of nuts.
3. Make sure I am drinking at least 3 to 4 L of water
4. Log foods on DailyBurn site along with here to increase accountability

Workouts for this week -

Monday - Yoga and PT work
Tuesday - Incline walk on the tread with cross training either on bike or elliptical along with core work
Wednesday - 6 miles steady and light ST
Thursday - Yoga and PT work
Friday - Rest
Saturday - 18 miler - goal time is less than 3:15...I would be so happy with this! We will see what happens :)

Meals for today 9/3 - I pre-logged my evening meals...

M1 - Turkey and kale meatloaf......crazy I know but I was craving it ;) Espresso with skim milk and dark chocolate :) It was one of those days......
M2 - Scrambled eggs with Quorn and spinach
M3 - protein shake with 1/2 apple
M4 - Bell peppers and cucumber
M5 - Grilled salmon with a protein shake
M6 - Yogurt with flaxseeds and almonds
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    Glad you are being proactive! Wish you the best!
    2052 days ago
    Jen, I hope you're feeling better, now. It's the end of the week and I think you mentioned that you have a long run tomorrow? Don't push yourself if you're not feeling 100%, okay? We all care about you and want only the best for you. Take good care, Jen. emoticon
    2054 days ago
    I just don't see anything wrong with your diet at all. I wonder if you are getting enough sunlight, considering where you are living right now. The one thing (that I hate to suggest.) is have you been tested for MS? Many of these symptoms sound like my Aunty's MS including the variation in energy level, motivation coming an going.

    Btw, don't confuse a Vit. D supplement with being as good as sunlight. What everybody needs is a little different, from body to body.

    I sincerely hope that whatever ails you clears up as soon as possible. . . .do you think you could be pregnant again? sometimes a pregnancy will go unnoticed, including what appears to be a normal cycle and being on a hormonal birth control.
    2056 days ago
    You motivate us all! It's okay to have some off days with energy. Thanks for keeping us updated!
    2057 days ago
    Congrats on your fabulous run Jen and being the best one ever just makes great energy and memories. Use it to fuel you for your next one this weekend. You can do it. I pray they come up with the answers for your energy and mood thing your fighting. I went through this as well years ago. Pray about it, stay strong, stay active , knowledge is power keep trying to change things around till the doctors know what they can do to help. And never worry about letting others down. You are only human and humans have good days and bad days. My energy is wacky all the time now that i'm 43. Crazy!! Wait till your my age. That's when you really know workouts and eating healthy is so important.
    I pray you get it figured out so your running will rock more and more. You got this !!! emoticon
    2057 days ago
    Jen, it would NOT be normal to feel fantastic all of the time. No one does. In fact, I feel totally and completely cruddy MOST of the time, despite regular exercise and healthy eating. It happens. Just keep experimenting and tweaking and soon you will be feeling back to your energetic self!

    Congrats on your 16 miler! Can't wait to read the gory details!
    2057 days ago
    The first thing I can say is DONT worry if you think you are letting others down. YOU Take Care of YOU, your baby and your hubby. and the 2nd is you are craving it, - then your body wanted it, and or could you be pregnant again? I know it was a long road for baby you have now, but never know.
    HUGS and take care of you.
    2057 days ago
    I am glad you are seeing a doctor because it could be so many things, as you well know. The human body, especially the female human body is very complex and all parts need to work together, so many things could just be off but I am sure you and your medical advisors will find the answers and you will have yourself back! emoticon
    2057 days ago
    Struggling lets the rest of us know you are human, and that once we get to where you are, it's not going to be all sunshine and roses and perfection. You're still motivating everyone else around you and are actually a stronger role model when going through adversity. You will get through this.
    2058 days ago
    I know how you feel! I have been having a lot of the same issues. I am going to an endocrinologist on Friday to hopefully find out what's wrong with me. I hope that you figure everything out very soon! Don't worry about letting others down. As long as you take care of you, you won't be letting the people who truly care about you down. Good Luck!!!
    2058 days ago
    I got like that about July of last year. I had just gotten to my 120lb loss, and I knew I had already problems with my hormones (after losing 50lbs and real bad after losing 120lb) but my moods went crazy. I started binge eating (I was still exercising my regular 2-3hrs a day) but over about 9 months, I gained back 43lbs (lost 16 back so far). I recently realized it may have been the serotonin and chemicals in my brain getting off because they say after a significant loss they can (doctor confirmed this). I got on Celexa in June and Phentermine at the end of July. It has helped SO much. I've only had a few bad days but nothing like the past year... I seriously no longer wanted to go on (as in live). It got real serious - but thankfully they have medicine to help us!

    I really hope your knee gets better and getting back on track comes easy!
    2058 days ago
    You can do it!!! One day at a time!!! You will figure it all out!!!
    2058 days ago
    Thanks for sharing! You shouldn't worry about letting others down, you're only accountable to yourself and you are doing an amazing job at trying to figure out the things that aren't working for you. We are here for your support just as much as you are for us! Take care of you now, we'll be fine and we'll be here when you've emerged victorious from your struggle and are again ready to be here for us.
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    2058 days ago
    You're doing really well! congratulations on your run!
    2058 days ago
  • LAURIE5658
    Jenn, I just know you will get the adrenal thing figured out somehow. Please make sure you are running you very long long runs S L O W L Y as that is extremely important!!!! You can do this!!

    2058 days ago
    2058 days ago
    Thanks for being so open and honest in this blog emoticon You are on the right track trying to pinpoint what is causing your energy levels to dip. emoticon
    2058 days ago
  • ROB704
    the fact that you're running 16 miles is just too cool....and going for a full marathon? You rock!
    2058 days ago
    I hope you find what is causing this low energy.
    You're doing great, you are working hard and are eating well. Tracking does help and I hope you find what works for you. Keep moving forward. Even if you feel like you're not 100% you are still AMAZING.
    You don't have to worry about letting others down. We all have those times. We are human. Don't worry. We all feel at times we are dragging or not motivated or down. Take care of yourself you are very special.
    2058 days ago
    Keep trying. You'll get it!
    2058 days ago
  • ROSET491
    Thanks for sharing!!
    2058 days ago
    You might consider reading about adrenal burnout. It happens when we are on a low cal diet and execise a large amount over a long period of time. I have read about this and know of quite a few strong, athletes who have experienced this.
    2058 days ago
    Hi Ya Jen! emoticon

    I just saw your blog pop up on my good to see you thriving!
    emoticon Those Meals look delish & packed with energy! Your page looks great...Wow! your precious little girl has grown so much...I remember when you were expecting healthy she is & YOU too!

    Giving God Praise for you & your family! How far He has grown you & what a wonderful future He has in store for you...

    ~ Laura emoticon
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