Another month gone
Sunday, September 02, 2012
Wow. September is already here. August was a fast month. The girls were gone half of the month. My head and I have been at war. Migraines and pressure, and vision in my right eye is just going. The only good thing I can say about it is that now, when it hurts, I don't eat if I don't move. I used to "comfort myself" with to-go food, until I realized I was really punishing myself more by eating things I didn't know all the ingredients and punishing my daughters by making them struggle with their weight also. Now they make due with something they can fix themselves.
Considering that I lost only 6 lbs in August, I am happy with my measurement change. I lost half an inch off the top of each arm, half an inch off my waist, an inch off my hips, and half an inch off each thigh. My Power 90 was supposed to be up September 12. I have probably averaged 4 days a week since June 12. I'm going to keep going at least until October 12, maybe longer. I have only done strength training 2x per week for the whole month of August.
I had one intestinal flare when I was completely on track, and it lasted 3 days. Last week, I'm adding foods back in one at a time to see what I can and can't have so I ate 10 tortilla chips, just to see. My face broke out, I had a TERRIBLE flare, and it lasted 3 days.
The girls have been great with school. Every morning they have gotten up and been ready to walk out the door at 7:40, no fussing. The outfits have been chosen the night before and I am making their lunches when I make my own.
I would still *like* to be one of those uber-dedicated weight loss superstars who could do a couple of hours of cardio a day, follow a great eating plan 100% of the time, strength train 4x a week, and have surgery at the end to fix the loose skin. A $50K WalMart gift certificate would be much appreciated, too, but also is out of my reach. I wouldn't leave my girls for a few months even if someone showed up and offered me that opportunity, though.
I can accept that I'm a real person, who works and takes care of kid activities and cleans house and eats clean and exercises some every day. My weight will get to a normal range,. It's just not going to happen in an hour or even an entire tv season. Five years ago I could barely find clothes to fit at Lane Bryant and Avenue, and now I can shop at my favorite local thrift shops and find great name-brand clothes for only a few dollars an article.