Sunday, September 02, 2012
In my search for the Continent of Contentment I am retraining my brain to focus on the positive and abhor perfectionism in order to comply with my new motto: Just get'er done, then have some fun.
So, despite years of retracing the same mental grooves of self-recrimination and auto-flagelation, I am lifting the needle from the broken record that is my mind, and playing a new song.
Good job Iz, you finished your back taxes and mailed them in. And today you will finish the job by filing them with your other financial documents, and saving and emailing the pdfs to yourself for next year. No more worrying about them!
Good job Iz, you managed to take a walk and limit the food and alcohol you consumed while visiting DH's family over the holiday weekend. You are more in tune with your body and are making choices that reflect your desire to feel and be healthier.
Good job Iz, your cleaning routines are working. It was a piece of cake to clean up the apartment you stayed in this weekend while visiting family. Unpacking the overnight bags once you got home and starting the laundry was automatic! DH even volunteered to do (part) of his weekeend routine, even though he had done ALL of it at the apartment before driving home.
Good job Iz, you finished and turned in the adjunct professor applications . . . with two days to spare! And you had everything the first time! You did all the right steps, took the correct amount of photocopies, and had the presence of mind to talk with HR BEFORE turning in the docs at the Registrar. This is a great step in the right direction.
Good job Iz, while preparing the paperwork for the applications, you organized several binders worth of important documents. This will make it so much easier for you to do paperwork in the future. You won't feel helpless or panicked because you can't find the right paper. It will be a snap to follow-up with the next step in the application process.
Great job Iz, you have WORKED ON YOUR THESIS. I know it was hard. I know it was scary to sit down with all that data. I know that you worry that you don't know what to do. But what is the only way to learn? That's right, by doing it. And I know that you can finish this report and turn it in. You can do it and you will move forward and tackle the next step with more confidence and will-power than before.
I am celebrating my progress. I am reaffirming my ability to DO and to CHANGE. I CAN be the person I want to be. This blog has no negatives, no setbacks, no complaining, no buts. Because that is not who I am. I am my successes, not my failures. I do not dwell on the past, I live in the now.