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Persevering through struggles

Saturday, September 01, 2012

Wow! What a year of changes this has been. As I posted at the beginning of the year - I was determined to make this healthier lifestyle work for me and to take back control of my health and life. The year started out great and the pounds began falling off of me. So much so that I finally hit the 50 lbs lost point this spring/summer! emoticon In addition, my blood sugars have been well controlled and I have added new cardio options to my routines (hiking, skiing, jogging/walking).

Despite the healthy changes, though, this has been a very emotionally difficult year. At the end of April, we lost my Father in Law who has lived with us since 1993. This was a sudden death - preceded by the sudden death of his brother 5 weeks before. These losses hit us hard and came just as I was finishing the weight loss program I began in January. I determined that rather than let the emotions sabotage me, I would simply stop working so hard to lose weight and rather just focus on making good choices and maintain what I had lost so far.

Two months later I was finally ready to begin working hard again and began to lose again. Then, at the end of July, my father passed away. This was a difficult passing as he had a heart attack, fell and hit his head on a Monday morning, then the EMT's resuscitated him and kept him breathing (by machine) for 2 more days. While this allowed my brothers and their families to get here to say good bye, it was an emotionally draining process. I am still working my way through this loss. Spending a lot of time traveling to my mother's (about an hour from my home) to help her and still working to take care of my family (dh and three teenage children).

While all of this has been going on, I have had one child graduate from High School and one from Middle School. The third has just started his last year of Middle School. In addition to getting the kids to camps, tournaments and work. And, in the midst of this, my oldest son broke his big toe on his left foot by dropping a 20 lb. Hexagonal weight on it at the beginning of August.

Today has capped off the changes. Last week my daughter began her freshman year at the High School. Then today, we moved my oldest son into his dorm at college for his freshman year. I'm very proud of him, but sad at the same time. Just trying to adjust to the fact that he's not home and won't be for several weeks. I'm so thankful he chose a school that's only 45 minutes away, but, not wanting to be a helicopter mom, I will still miss seeing him each day.

So, it's time to get serious about this weight again. I have maintained my previous loss through all of this and persevered. Now it's time to crack down and start losing again. Thank you to all of my Spark friends that have been so encouraging despite my inactivity here. I hope you will be seeing more of me as this year begins to wind down.

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    You can do it!!!! Major life changes for you..
    But glad you're coming back!
    2061 days ago
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