"What is"

Friday, August 31, 2012

So, it's been almost 4 weeks since I've started changing my lifestyle and I've lost 15 lbs so far. Really happy about that. I got on the scale last week (which was very challenging to wait that long), and I had lost 1.5 lbs in a week. For the first time ever I was happy about it. Not thinking, "Oh, that's not enough, what did I do wrong?", but thinking, "Great", I felt great about my progress! I know I'm in this for the long haul. I have changed my attitude towards myself. I talk differently to myself, gentler and kinder. I acknowledge that, yes I became very overweight, and it hurt me, I was disappointed and ashamed. It may sound counterproductive to bring about those feelings but I read this article from Martha Beck about accepting "what is" about yourself to then move forward. The first time I read it and practiced accepting and letting go the way she described it, I felt a release like I've never felt before. I realized the more I resisted really looking at myself, the more I moved away from listening to my body and what it really needed. So here I am, opening up to a new life. Being vulnerable and telling strangers this is another step to trusting myself again...which feels way better, way, WAY better than digging my heels in, being angry at the world, losing sleep, blaming others, feeling sick after stuffing myself with junk and so on...
Peace in my life has been something intangible that I've sought for so long and now I see it's possible. In fact, I have glimpses of it more and more everyday.

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P.S. The article is in the September issue of O, The Oprah magazine and it's called,"Eyes Wide Open", by Martha Beck.
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    Practice, practice. Yes, we need to be intentional about our thankfulness and acceptance about what is. It is so easy to be lead by our emotions and "wrong thinking." It is easy to be pulled down by something we read or some comment someone says. I have to remember to check myself each day, each thought to filter it through what God says about me in His word to make sure my thoughts would be pleasing to Him. I am accountable to Him in thought, word and deed. Thank you for your thoughts.
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