hey it's been a while!
Thursday, August 30, 2012
I thought I'd write up a blog to update since I've kind of gone missing from SP for a while.
My workouts still haven't been the greatest. I'm working on it though. Just have to remember to push myself. I've also been helping my boyfriend with his workouts lately because he's training for his physical testing to get into a police academy.
Today when I went for a run, I was listening to one of Jillian's podcasts like always, and something occurred to me as I was running. I think the reason why I haven't had as much motivation to work out as I have in the past is because I feel lonelier now than when I was fat. I thought people hated me before because I was fat, or at least used that as an excuse to use against me. I thought people would have liked me more because I'm thin, but now that I am thin, I see that people still hate me. I also feel like friends have forgotten about me as well now that I've lost the weight. I know that you can't make everyone happy and that I shouldn't care what other people think, but I can't completely convince myself of these thoughts even though I know they're true. That probably doesn't make much sense... but it's the best way I can describe it.