I'm in the honeymoon phase of my new healthy living

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Okay, I started counting calories last Thursday, August 23. I am so excited to be here at SparkPeople again. But I opened my SP account in 2008. I remember at that time I was very excited too. For about . . . . 2 weeks. And then when I lost 3 pounds or something, I cried, quit and moved on.

I have done that another time since then too. It's the honeymoon phase. Where you start out and you're all gung ho and there are visions of skinny clothes and being able to go to a party without struggling with your weight.

Well, here I am again. A week tomorrow. I have done great. No cheating. I feel great. A little hungry at times, but I'm in the zone. And I've made a couple of friends on SP and the encouragement is so nice and I appreciate it so much because I don't think I could encouragement myself enough to keep on keepin' on.

So, here is what I am telling myself at this moment. 'Samantha, be committed to you. Make a committment to keep trying.'

Now, even as I type that I have to admit I shudder a little bit. I'm scared. I'm scared that this time next week I'll be crying and I'll want to quit, and I'll be depressed that I will never be able to go to the beach without everybody starring at me. Or that when I go dancing nobody wants to dance with me. Or that I'll never have the skinny wardrobe of cute clothes that I want. Ugh ugh ugh.

So - here's the deal. I'm scared. So what. DO IT AFRAID!!! I am doing this afraid. I can't change the fear. But I can face it. And I am committing myself to face the fear. Stare at it in the face and say 'NO. NOT THIS TIME. I AM WORTH SUCCEEDING! I AM WORTH THE BIKINI! I AM WORTH BEING ALL THAT I WANT TO BE.'

So, that is how I feel at this moment. I am on the honeymoon phase where I'm excited, and when the pending fear comes at me I am going to stare it down and I will be fearce about it!

I am at this moment doing the white man's overbite and dancing where I sit.
Oh yeah - oh yeah - I'm rockin' it - oh yeah . . . .. . . .
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    Hi Samantha!

    Just wanted to wish you well on your journey!

    I can so relate to the honeymoon phase! I've been in denial for quite some time and finally found the courage to face my weight demons and rid myself of them!!!

    Wish I could be brave and post before pics like you... perhaps one day.

    Started my SP journey Sept. 4th and there is no looking back for this gal...

    What are some of your goals?




    3001 days ago
    Congrats on your 3 lb loss !! I too stuggle with the negative self doubt.... can I do it this time ? will I actually see it through till the end ??? I read Dr Phil's book "The seven keys ro Weight loss" or something like that and he has a whole chapter devoted to changing your self talk. I think I checked it out from the library and then eventually bought it myself since I need to re read it every so often !!LOL !!

    you can totally do this !!

    3003 days ago
    I really relate to your blog post, Samantha. I also fear what will happen if I have a weak day and stray from my goals. I worry that I'll never get myself back on track again. But I truly believe that this time is going to be different. I want to be in this for the long haul, and I keep reminding myself that there will be weeks that my progress won't show on the scale. I'm hoping that at those times I can focus on the fact that I'm improving my health by eating better, keeping my salt down, and walking. Though losing weight is a major part of this adventure, it's not the only benefit of our efforts.

    Good luck tomorrow. We can do this, Spark Sister! I'll stick with it no matter what if you will.

    3007 days ago
    I think we all may feel afraid at some point in our journey...Afraid to start, afraid we might lose focus to keep moving in the right direction towards our goals or afraid even as we may reach our goals because we do not want to mess up all of the progress we have made...It has helped me so much to just take one day at a time and make many smaller goals along the way so I can always look back and see all of the small goals and progress I have made and it helps to keep me focused to work hard toward the bigger goals... Everyday that we keep moving forward we are making progress emoticon So I guess the way I see it is Yes, Just do It !! Afraid or not..YOU ARE WORTH IT !! Always believe in yourself emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3007 days ago
    Wow, what a great start! You sound very committee to your goals...just hang in there when the going gets tough! You can do this!
    3008 days ago
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