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Letters of Recommendation

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

So I am trying to join this national honor society for jesuits.... I have to write an essay, complete the application and then get two letters of recommendation from people who will speak about how much I help people in the community.

And I thought to myself..... do I help people? I answered yes because I donate my time and money to church a lot, but other than that, do I really help my community out. And then it dawned on me that Sparkpeople is its own community. And i think its fair to say I've been a helpful person to some on here. I know not lately, but for two years prior to this hectic internship. Really this is my community far more than my actual community. I mean this is where I really "grew up" in my eating disorder, my journey to better health, and becoming a good role model by practicing what I preach about eating good foods and lots of water. My sparkians have listened when a moment of inspiration hit and consoled me when time were rough. You are my community. So I thought maybe someone here would want to write a letter of recommendation for me? No pressure, its okay if you dont want to; I thought I'd put it out there.

in other news, I have been pretty depressed about breaking up with this guy I was dating. I've been having a lot of thoughts about self-worth and that old creeping thought of "I'm not pretty because I am fat; I am not desirable because I am fat" has popped into my head more than a few times. I do stop that thought when it comes and re-frame my thinking. Being beautiful doesnt always mean on the outside, I have lost a ton of weight and I do look pretty (my figure is starting to appear, yes!) and most of all, the right guy is going to think I am beautiful regardless of my weight.

This breaking up thing as been a journey. I just hope next time its better. Internship is going well. I am super busy, but learning a million lessons about life. I'm over-worked and under-paid, but I think that I am being given the gift of experience. In a few weeks I am volunteering to counsel homeless people for a day. I am sort of excited about it because its a new population for me and as you all probably now, those who are homeless usually have something going on and need to talk to someone. And I get to be that someone!

Anything else? I am thinking of starting C25K again. I'd like to get back into running. I miss working out. And while it is most definitely true that I dont have the time between two jobs (about 60 hours a week), I think that this is important for my self-care. So, we shall see.

I hope everyone is doing well and I miss all of you~
Warrior On!
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    Glad you are still going strong!
    2113 days ago
    I'm just glad to hear that you are doing well overall. Keeping positive is important, but we all have a bit of negative self talk in ourselves that comes out sometimes. the important thing is that you are recognizing it and nipping it in the bud when it happens. That's fantastic. Let me know if there is anything I can do, and keep on keeping on.
    2116 days ago
    Sounds like you really need to learn to love yourself sweetie-- what is there not to love- you have a pure and open heart! Look at yourself in the mirror daily and tell yourself "I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE" and if you do it Naked it works better!
    2120 days ago
  • GAMEON123
    I'm so glad you have a full and satisfying life ...so sorry about the break-up. I should follow your lead on the C25K idea!
    2120 days ago
    Wow, you sure do have a lot going on! I wish you well getting letters and doubt it will be hard for you at all!
    2120 days ago
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