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Climbing back on...

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Well, I fell off the wagon pretty hard. I'll weigh in tomorrow AM, but I'm pretty sure I'm back to where I started in January, and then some (nice, given that the wedding I wanted to lose weight for is in less than 2 weeks).

The whole job change threw me for more of a loop than I thought it would. It disrupted my routine, and, frankly, it sent me into a pretty low spot. I didn't love the job. I still don't. But things are changing around me, and I think change will be for the better. I have the opportunity to make things happen in a way I never did before.

Home life was a bit crazy, too. Not bad, but enough that I couldn't focus on me. Plus ... being the bridal party (pretty much) and MOH and wedding planning and stuff. Yeah ... I'll use that as an excuse.

Excuses excuses. But the truth is, you can only focus on so much at once. It took all my energy to go to work, do my job (and not want to kill someone or whine about how I ruined my life by leaving the last job), come home, make dinner (and be told by the 6 year old that I'm a terrible cook, even though I know I'm not), and all that jazz. Everything suffered. I got suckier at bill paying (just lazier about it than I usually was). I let most relationships lapse. I dropped the gym and the eating right.

I mean, I tried to eat right and start up again on a few sunnier days. But it never lasted. I don't know that this will, either. But I feel somehow ... different ... about it all. I feel like I'm finally getting into a bit of a routine and I've figured some things out. So maybe, just maybe, I can stick to it again.

(Well, except during the wedding. Rehearsal Dinner and the Wedding are freebies. I promise myself that.)
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  • NEWYEARME
    We've all been there. Don't beat yourself up... Just get back on the wagon and forget what happened in the past. Just focus on what you're doing now. One day at a time!!!!

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  • ROSIESNOW
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    Welcome back you two, Murph and dizzydilly. Nice to see you both coming back.

    Falling off the wagon is a hard jolt of reality sometimes.Sometimes the fall is long and hard, making the climb back on to the wagon, a bigger challenge than it needs to be.

    Just try to pick foods that you like to eat and eat them in moderate portions, instead of totally denying foods you like to eat. The fall is not so far, that way, and easier to regain lost ground.

    Good luck hon!
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  • DIZZYDILLY1
    WOW...this is really crazy that we both chose today to start again.
    Must be Karma....LOL

    So glad your back. Looking forward to "moving forward".

    Welcome back.
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    2868 days ago
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