Who wants to beat up my brain?
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
My mood today is just.. ughhhhhhhhhhhkljsdhfaskdfkjasd
If I could snarl like a murloc all day long I totally would (HA WoW reference)
I feed off you guys and your positivity. The last blog I wrote every comment pushed me more and more til I got up off my butt and looked up some spark videos to try out and I did try them out. Since then? nada. but I have been eating better so that's a plus right? And I lost 2 lbs my first week of effort. Another plus. So here's my problem. My half a$$ed second attempt at this. Something still isn't clicking to make this a permanent thing for me. I have tried to motivate the crap outta myself. Threats of badly aching feet and legs the first week of hopefully a new job right away hasn't done it. I even talked the bf into letting me reward a 100 lb weight loss into a trip to vegas for me and my sister. I would LOVE to go to vegas and have a few days away to spend quality time with my sister who is 8 years younger than me. It wouldn't just be a 100 lb loss.. it would also be my first time under 200 lbs in 10 years so it's a huge deal and deserves a huge reward.
My brain is evil. It fights an endless battle with my body and almost always wins. I don't know how to stop that. I feel like I'm lazy and I'm tired 100% of the time. I hope this new job will fix that as well as help me push into weight loss. I've been stuck at home and inside for far too long and as terrified as I am about actually being around people I am also very excited.
I guess I need to set some smaller goals and rewards for myself so the big 100 lb goal doesn't seem so.. unattainable and such a far away reward.
Hope all you guys are having a great day! (sorry this blog is so.. random)