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Monday, August 27, 2012

...and I am falling back fast. I've gained back the few pounds that I had lost and am back on the coffee/sugar kick. It's awful. I was doing amazing too! I was juicing every day and then my abdominal pain hit hard again which came with severe migraines and I've always used caffeine to combact my migraines. Yesterday afternoon I spent almost the entire day on the couch feeling sorry for myself and wasn't even prepared for the boys first day of school this morning.

We woke up late, got to school late (in the pouring rain which made the delay even worse), forgot to give the boys money for lunch, no breakfast for any of us, and I was an hour late to work.

Luckily work has been slow which has given me a chance to reflect on this morning and where things started to go wrong. When I feel that pain I don't want to do anything because I am hurting so bad. I start feeling sorry for myself and I start to spiral out of control. Before I know it I am back to square one again and feeling defeated.

Today I choose not to feel defeated. I am choosing to learn from my mistakes and start all over again. So what if I blew it the first time. The important thing is getting back up and trying again.

Today I am going to replace my coffee with green tea. In my mind I am going to tell myself that I feel amazing amazing though I really feel like I am falling apart. Tonight after I pick up the boys from school I am going to go to the gym. I'm sure my workout will be sad but any workout is better than none at all. Today I am going to take care of business-even if its only for today....
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    One day at a time and not looking back. I know this is easier said than done and I too am struggling with my own demons. We can do this, I know we can. I am so sorry the abdominal pains are back. Have you found a doctor yet that can tell you what is going on and how to keep the pain away?
    Big hugs to you girl, remember yesterday is past tomorrow is the future and today is the present, a gift, a chance to do it over. Let go of yesterday it will only weigh you down.
    2097 days ago
    I am going through the same n focusing on today as u said is most important ..........we are all in it together emoticon
    2097 days ago
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    Thank you so much you guys!!
    2097 days ago
    "Today" is a great motivator. Sometimes one day at a time is the best way to get on track...seeing the long-term big picture can be overwhelming when you're starting over.

    Don't beat yourself up too much about it, and remember to keep getting your motivation and cheering section here at SP!

    You did it before and you can certainly do it again!
    2097 days ago
    You are right any workout is better then none. You will feel great afterwards. Sometimes at the end of my treadmill workout I turn up the speed for the last minute to get a fast run in. I feel great after. Good Luck
    2097 days ago
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