Where's my head?

I'm back to 170 pounds. I lost 25 pounds just to gain 10 back in a month... My pants are starting to get tighter. I AM GOING BACKWARDS!

I've got to stop this cycle. This is how I gained so much in the first place. I lost sight. I got too comfortable.. "Oh, I can eat this. Oh, I can eat that, I'm not gonna gain it back, blah blah.." Then, BOOM-- you're fat again!

Ugh... You may think I'm being too hard on myself. But, truthfully, I haven't been hard enough. I've been so "whatever" about it all, that I haven't even been trying. I even joined a weight loss challenge in "real life" and it's not helping either. I need to get in the right mindset.

I need to WRITE down my goals and make a vision board. This is my goal today. Scratch the "I need to.." I WILL write down my goals & make a vision board. I WILL hang it up where I will see it EVERYDAY. In my bedroom? Maybe in the bathroom... YEs, in the bathroom, OR on the fridge? hmm...

I just realized the other day too, that I've been a Sparkie for a whole year already! WOW. Where the hell did that year go? I didn't get to my goal. But, this is why I'm starting fresh. Christmas is my new goal.. to be down 20 pounds by Christmas. It won't be my finished goal weight, but it's a realistic number I think.

OH- also, I signed my friend and I up for a 5k in October. So, this too will hopefully get my booty walking/jogging again. This will be good.

Ok, now back to work!

Have a great day everyone! Sorry such a Debbie-Downer type blog. The next one will be more positive:)