Cancel that drumroll...
Friday, August 24, 2012
Ok, here's the deal. I used to weigh in on Sundays, to keep myself accountable. I just recently changed to Mondays, to go along with the SP weigh-in group. I've also found I kind of like it that day, too. Then I started thinking about maybe doing a 'cheat' weigh-in halfway in the week, just to check in with myself. Daily would have been too much, so I settled on a quick, no stress, not tracked, second weigh in. Which I forgot to do yesterday, and did this morning.
A loss!!! I was SO excited. I didn't have time to blog about it at work today, it was so busy I worked through most of my lunch, (I know, I know, that's terrible. I try not to.) and didn't have much time to spend here.
That's the drumroll part, hurray! Two weeks of losses, that's awesome. I'm hoping that means the steroid tapering is actually taking effect, and maybe I can *finally* start to lose some of the weight I've gained. I'm really, really anxious to start losing the weight I've gained. I'm so over it!
So why the cancelling of the drumroll? Well, I went to CVS to pick up some face wash and soda for hubby. (Don't worry, I don't drink soda. I rarely drink one, maybe 2 a month? That's something I've really been able to stick to. Yeah!) I went through the snacks, thinking about picking up some more hurricane food. Ok, let's be brutally honest here. It was partially hurricane prep, half chocolate cravings. I almost grabbed a pack of cookies. As in, had them in my hand, almost grabbed them. But I didn't, put them back. I walked back to them, and then away again. I was proud of myself, and thought of all the calories I had saved myself, knowing I wouldn't be able to eat just one with all the stress and emotions I've got running through me. So I left the store, happy with my choice.
Once I got home, I remembered I needed to eat a snack, and was having a hard time deciding what to eat. I was still craving chocolate, and decided to munch on some chocolate chips. (??really??) Then I switched to rice cakes, not bad, but not in the quantity I ate! How terrible of me.
Now I'm wondering, if I had chosen a small piece of chocolate or small cookie pack from the store, and had that, would I have come home and binged? Maybe I should have given in to my crazy cravings, but limited myself with what I had. I've already learned keeping cookies and chips and things in the house is bad, as I don't have much self control there. I've gotten a lot better since not keeping the house stocked with those items, but I still slip and run to the store to get some on occassion.
So I hope I learned a lesson here. Not that I won't ever slip again, I know that, but next time I will stop, think, and decide if this craving is going to cause problems later, and if so, what I can do to appease it while keeping my food tracker happy.
I'm also hoping this won't ruin my weight loss I saw today. If it doesn't stay a loss, I'm ok with that IF it's because my body fluctuated and that I understand. I will be upset if it's because I ate poorly. So I'm picking myself back up and getting back on track for the rest of tonight and the weekend.