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Needing A Little Sunshine Today...

Monday, August 20, 2012

Well, I haven't blogged in awhile. Don't like that... blogging is one of the things that really helps me stay on track. Get those feelings OUT instead of stuffing them; but sometimes life just gets busy and there you are...

So let's see. The bad news is that I haven't worked out since last TUESDAY. OMG. That hasn't happened in almost 6 months! But Wednesday was spent doing things for my brother, then on Thursday I had to drink a bunch of that yukky stuff to prep for a colonoscopy on Friday. Did that BECAUSE colon cancer is rampant in our family and I will NOT do like my brother and wait until it's already killing me to go to the doctor - his biggest regret. Saturday was SICK - throat felt like I had been gargling with glass and Sunday was more of the same. Eating has been so-so. Didn't eat enough some days and ate some things I normally wouldn't, because I didn't have anything else in the house and didn't feel like going out. Planning is SO important.

Today is Monday. The scale did show some increase, but nothing major and nothing I wouldn't expect. I still feel REALLY TIRED, but today there WILL be exercise. Not sure what yet, but my body is craving it - which is pretty cool.

My heart is sad, though, because once again I thought - THOUGHT- I had found a possible love, but once again he turned out to be a liar. I had just started letting my guard down a little...

So today I feel pretty crappy overall. I will be OK, because I know what to do to BE ok. I will eat right, I will exercise, I am talking to my friends about my feelings (instead of stuffing them down with food), I got up and put on makeup and dressed cute, I am at work and will do my best, and I have DECIDED to continue to be happy.

But a few hugs and words of encouragement would be appreciated, dear friends.

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    You are an inspiration to me and if I can help in any way I will. We all have down days. Thanks for being there when I was a complete mess and decided to try this again and get moving...
    After throwing myself into a project last week, this week I need to clean and sort, hate that, but it all brings more clarity. It's like finding a melody from your youth and being able to plug into all that you have become and make it beautiful.... emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    Know that my thoughts are with you. I am sending you lots of love and hugs.
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    emoticon You have the right attitude!. Just keep on doing the things you know to do and you will get there. emoticon
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    I'm not thinking clearly enough to be profound this week as I start facing my normally scheduled life (after week of vacation and a funeral week off), but wanted to send you hugs and sunshine. Seems like fall started while I wasn't looking. Adjusting to the sinus/allergie infection that living in nature has left me with. Down to two loads of Pennsic laundry and still have to clean the garage and put the tent away. Have to call the doctors and schedule my daughter's and my annual exams - no skipping mine this time. Planning to pick up my 5K schedule from where I fell off weeks ago, I think it's week 4.

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    You'll be back to feeling great in no time! Sometimes life gets busy and that's just the way things go, for all of us. The best thing you can do is what you've already done! Make sure you get in that exercise today and then it will be easier to get back into that groove you were in before. Glad to hear you got your colonoscopy, that is SO important. You are facing the facts head on with your health and your life, way to go for not giving up on either plain. Keep looking at things through a positive perspective and you will succeed! Love you!! emoticon
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    You DO have this! It soiunds like you are taking steps in the right direction so that you can get back on track quickly. I always feel better after I hit the gym, but I've also struggled with just getting there. Stay strong!
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    emoticon So sorry you are feeling a bit down. That's great that you got the colonoscopy..we must be cautious especially when certain things run in our families.
    As far as letting your guard down and it not working out..I always try to think this way..the reason it didn't work out is because it wasn't right and you are to be kept open for the one that is right for you. Actually I am beginning to think my "right one " is lost somewhere..wish I could give him directions..or a map or something
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    Hang in there !!
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    I think there's a mild virus going around - I have been EXHAUSTED for about a week since returning from Pennsic, with just mild sniffles and a few sneezes. Make sure you're getting enough sleep. If you're too tired to workout, you can do gentle stretches to keep yourself in the routine of doing SOMETHING for yourself. I think the important thing is not slipping out of the habit of taking care of yourself, even if you have to scale back until you have more energy.

    Recognize that your brother being sick is stressful for you. You need to take care of yourself, physically and emotionally. The colonoscopy sounds stressful even without a family history and worrying about what they could find - I hate new medical things like that.

    You totally got this.
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  • KIMPY225
    Sorry to hear about it not working out with that person - at least you found out now & not later!

    I am glad you are blogging again. Keep your head up!
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  • CAROLJ35
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    You are headed in the right direction! You recognize your downfalls and are ready to get up and go att 'em.
    Sorry you have been under the weather and hope things are better now.
    DH goes for his colonoscopy this week as that problem is also in his family.
    And I, too, am ready for sunshine. Was sure I could enjoy pool today, but guess not. How much other parts of country would appreciate this rainfall.!!!
    Get your week off to a good start!!!
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