First day of school nerves
Sunday, August 19, 2012
I am beginning school tomorrow and I am nervous. I started my graduate assistantship Friday and made a massive mistake. I used four times the amount of paper I should have on a copying error. I learned two lessons, read my email closely before starting my day and listen more. I know it was just first day jitters but the two teachers I work for quickly closeted themselves in a closed door meeting right before I left. My anxiety made up a whole story that they were already trying to get rid of me.
Then there is my procrastination. I realize that I procrastinate out of fear. I am afraid that I will fail at all the goals I set for myself or at worse, that I will succeed and be overwhelmed. Writing it out, it makes no sense that those things would make me afraid. But it does. I think I am going to ask a friend to hold me accountable for one or two things I want to do. That way I focus on the road right in front of me rather than some massive highway project. That is doable. So, now I am off to bed and exercise in the morning.
Quick tip, I am avoiding wheat but I like cereal. So I make paleo cereal out of walnuts, almond slivers and blueberries. Maybe bananas too. Add soy milk and I am good to go. Good Night !!