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Trying this Again!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

It's been a long time since I have blogged about my binge eating disorder and really it's because I had chosen not to focus on it. I've just felt overall defeat in this area and wanted to focus elsewhere. While I have made progress in many areas of my life this year..This particular area I've struggled. The beast has been on my heels all year long and I've been letting it win without really fighting.

I'm starting to regain ground in fighting my depression. I've still a lil bit to go, but I've had some really good days in the past couple of weeks. Thank you everyone for all of your support and prayers. They really mean a lot to me! emoticon emoticon emoticon

I'm not 100% sure that this is the right time to work on my binge eating yet will there ever be a so called right time? I can list 1001 reasons why I wouldn't or couldn't do it right now. emoticon So what am I doing?

Am I counting calories? NOPE
Am I making strict restrictions in my diet? NOPE!
Am I trying to start a streak of binge frree days? DOUBLE NOPE? (This may be okay for some, but this has really undermined my progress in the past)

So what am I doing? Well, a long long lomg time ago I read a book that was suggested to me called, "Overcoming Binge Eating" by Dr. Fariburn. I read it and learned all about binge eating and what have you...the only thing I didn't do was to try out his plan to overcome it. So that's what I will be doing. I've already started. The first step is to write down what I eat & drink, what time, the context of eating and the where. No tacking calories. This is just meant to give me an idea of where my pitfalls might be or give me an idea of a pattern. I have to admit it's not easy writing every little smiggen down. I want to put it off til later, but the book recommends keeping up with it each time you eat. I haven't done it today, so will get back to it tomorrow. The goal is to be as consistent as possible. I am also making it a goal to do my Physical Therapy Exercises 3-4 days a week and to get in more fruits and veggies.

I'm feeling hopeful about this. I brought it up with my therapist and she is very supportive. Also I have spoken to a dear spark friend about it and she too is supportive. I will be honest. This is going to be a difficult task trying to tame this beast and I will need all the support I can get. I plan on blogging at least once a week. I'm sorry I have not thanked each and everyone for posting on my last blog. Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed. But I certainly do appreciate all the support and love you send. Know that I love y'all too!

So here I go trying again!
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    I am certainly here to support you! Binge eating is something I struggle with a lot too, really unsure how to go about stopping it. If this plans works for you, I may have to give it a try. You can do it. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2073 days ago
    Cynthia, I totally support you in approaching your relationship with food and with eating in a loving, curious, and positive way. As I've said numerous times, I don't choose to weigh, measure or track my foods. Some people can, and get a lot of benefit. Another strategy is to eat mindfully. This is where journaling could be very helpful. Before eating, do a scan--how are you feeling physically and emotionally? Continue paying attention as you eat. Taste every bite, slow down, savor--and when you feel full or satisfied, stop.

    I've just been rereading Chopra's Reinventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul, and he makes the point that we can do great harm to ourselves when we tune out our bodies and stop paying attention to the sensations and messages it uses to communicate with us. Let me know how I can support you, my friend. I don't expect you to be perfect, but I believe you can make progress in this area, and begin to heal this imbalance in your body and spirit.

    Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon
    2074 days ago
    emoticon Cynthia -


    We're here to support you

    Lots of love & emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Babysteps my friend. This is such a positive first steps for you to take. I am so proud of you! You have come a million miles and now you are following a wonderful new path in your journey! emoticon emoticon Momma Bear emoticon
    2074 days ago
    emoticon for blogging...you have made a statement of intent..this is about the 3d step in actually making a change in your life. So you are on your way!
    Keep letting us know how you are doing. It is hard. IT IS HARD!! and we will not expect immediate, wonderful success.....Keep trying emoticon
    2074 days ago
    I think the hardest part is the FIRST step....no matter how often we take it. emoticon You're doing great work, sweetie!!! emoticon

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